Failed Summit Attempt

Me : I want to know why I failed making it to the summit of the peak ? I trained hard. I scarified. I toiled. I went through pain. I was disciplined. I gave my best to prepare for the climb. I don't think I could have worked any harder for this. I think I deserved success here !

Voiceless Voice : Yes, I think so too.

Me : Then, why did I not make it ?

Voiceless Voice : In my understanding, it was a success. The failure itself was the success.

Me : What the..... ??

Voiceless Voice : Your judgement of success was summiting the peak. My focus lies not in the result, but in the process. Many times, you begin to follow and do what you love ( in this case - climbing ). In the beginning, you climbed for the love of it and the heart brought joy to your soul, irrespective of any goals, agenda, aims, recognition or material reward. This kept you happy and results you achieved were simply by-products of your state of being. This is the journey of the heart - a space of Love.
Then, came the goals, ambition and a result-orineteed approach ( in this case - summitting high peaks ). Gradually, heart made way to the mind. The romance gave way to an agenda. Freedom was clipped with bondage of success. And passion took over from love. The transition was subtle and you wouldn't even know the difference.

I wanted you back. Back to the world of Love. So I sabotaged your summit bid. My connection with you is Love and I want you to use more of your heart. Once you started making plans of bagging high summits, I decided to pull you back or I may have lost you. You would have gone ahead to be a successful climber but I want you to climb higher.

This failure will remind you be detached to results, enjoy the moment, live in love and celebrate small moments of joy with equal joy as summiting.

Me : You could have told me this earlier ! I would saved all those calories and agony of hard training !

Voiceless Voice : I want you to know the difference on your own - climbing after intense training with focused goal and climbing the same peak with a detached approach, just enjoying days in the mountains.

Me : Hmm...I did get lost in the goal and lost sight of the moment. I felt more anxious of failure and forgot to have fun. Thanks for bringing me back !

Voiceless Voice : Find Me in that leaf on the trail, that glorious sunrise, passing butterfly and that smooth boulder on the way or a just a passing cloud...  

           
        

Truthful Lie

Me : I just lied to my Mom. Is that bad ?

Voice : What did you lie for ?

Me : I didn't want to go with her to a family gathering so I just said I was very sick and running a temperature when actually I was out for a movie with my friends.

Voice : Are you feeling guilty ?

Me : Uh..No.

Voice : So why bring it up ?

Me : I just want to know if its bad to lie ?

Voice : I am not sure how you like to judge actions as good or bad. All I can say that it pays to make others happy and it certainly boomerangs to make anyone unhappy. So anything you think, speak or do - ask yourself if it makes the other feel good or miserable ?

Me : So I can lie - if my intention is not to hurt the other person ?

Voice : The whole deal about speaking lies and truth is nothing but a magnified work of the Ego. Sometimes, we feel we are being righteous by saying the truth - even at the cost of someone else's happiness. How can that ever be the truth which fails to uplift anyone ? How can it be called a lie when you protect the feelings of other ?

In reality, you are a Living Lie ! Everything about You and this existence is a Lie. There is only one Truth. Until we reach there everything is a lie.

Me : And what is that Truth ?

Voice : Love. Love. Love.
Anything you think, speak or do from the premise of Love can never be a lie. Love only uplifts the other. Love protects the weak. Love gives strength. Love only gives. Love is sacrifice.

Me : So when people talk about calling 'spade a spade', it's actually just acting from the standpoint of their Egos !

Voice : Over time, it will be natural of you to be conscious only of one fact - ' will my actions and words uplift another ? ' You won't be driven by the usual trick of 'I always tell the Truth.' Its just a play of the mind.







           

Tea Companion

Voice : Hi. I know you are lost in the moment and enjoying your cup of tea right now, but can I join you for a moment ?

Me : You are funny.

Voice : Thank you for the compliment.

Me : So, did I do something stupid, again ?

Voice : Ha ha. You are funny too. In fact, I wanted to tell you something. You did very well today. I mean you had a flat tyre, lost your wallet and your proposal got rejected. All this happened in one day and I like the way you are handling it all.

Me : Well..you been guiding me. But, I did get angry again and I know I should have stayed positive.

Voice : I can only guide, but you have to live it and I see you doing everything in your capacity to try and live the positive way. It doesn't matter if you get angry sometimes, get dejected or disappointed or fall prey to senses. The important part is to acknowledge and accept and that gradually turns into Awareness. How will you ever know light unless you know darkness ? How will you know forbearance until you experience anger ? How will you know joy unless you know despair ?

Me : Hmm.

Voice : How will you ever understand the stillness of this cup of tea that you are having right now unless you crave for the stillness ? And the craving will come when you experience chaos or intense activity.

Me : You are right. I enjoy the cup of tea most in the day, when if it follows long hours of mental or physical work. I still remember my most precious moment of devouring a simple cup of tea. It was after trekking for almost 12 hours in most arduous climb in the Himalayas and being exposed to continuous snowfall and bitter cold winds. That hot tea I had after arriving at the campsite was the most valued, treasured, loved and remembered moment. The tea was not exotic but it was the best ! Think I got your point.

Voice : No matter what is happening around you, no one can take away the that moment of stillness from you. You will always have the power to create that moment. It can be sipping a cup of tea, lying on the grass, walking your dog, cooking a new dish, staring at the clouds or simply listening to the birds chirping.

Me : Yes.

Voice : Remember pain may be inevitable, but suffering is a choice. Don't loose sight of the bliss that is you. And I don't mind being invited for your tea breaks. I quite like it.

Me : Ha ha. You are my eternal tea companion!

Love Potion

Me : Can you take this guy away ? Some place far ! I don't need this right now.

Voice : What happened ?

Me : I am so angry and disturbed right now. He is totally wrong to do this. All he needs to do is get this simple job done and I know he is letting his big ego come in the way and my work is getting delayed. I have been very patient with him.

Voice : So, you want me to help ?

Me : Yes !

Voice : Alright. Lets discuss how we can change our response to this and...

Me : I don't want to change anything about me ! Just get him to disappear from my life ! Can you do that ?

Voice : How can I vanish him when it was Me who placed him in your life in the first place ?

Me : You ???

Voice : Yes, its always Me.

Me : So now this is good of me ? You like me getting angry, hateful, anxious and frustrated ?

Voice : No, I don't want you to feel like this.

Me : I dont understand...what do you want me to do now ? You know clearly he is unfair, mean and has nothing to do with spirituality.

Voice : I know. He was hand-picked by Me and I placed him in your life for an important reason. He will help you remove layers of undesirable aspects within you. The only way I can do that is when I succeed in finding just the right personality to move into your life and at regular intervals to challenge you to respond either out of hate, anger, fear, anxiety, jealousy, envy, insecurity or out of Love.

Me : And what about failing at work ??

Voice : The only real failure is failing to respond with Love.

Me : So, you okay with me if I become a total loser, but I respond with Love to all these clowns and circus around me ?

Voice : Only the most fortunate one will be a total loser. Where loss will be his highest gain. Where Love will be the only motivation, only fuel, only response, only hope, only longing and only direction for him. He would have known that everything around him is just training him to respond from the premise of Love.

Its is Love that has the power. Its is Love that is antidote to hatred. Its is Love that heals. It is Love that fulfils all of us. Its is Love that the world needs. Its is Love the solves all difficulties. Love and Love alone.

When we fail to operate out of Love, we strengthen the grip of false over us. We see separateness instead of oneness, we feel inadequacy instead of abundance, we embrace fear instead of faith.

I want you to grow towards Love which is true strength. The road is uneasy, but I am with you each time you take the courage to win others with Love. Where there is Love, my presence is felt and you are always protected. Everything may fail but Love never fails.

So, each time you face a person or a situation that challenges you to use the lower qualities of hate, revenge, lust, envy, pride, greed, judgement - think of it as game that I am playing with you. And each time you transcend the lower qualities, I promise to celebrate our victory together - 'Victory of Love' - that binds us all together !

Me : Phew! Thats gonna be tough. I was raised all these years with a very different mindset of self-preservation, protection, distrust and separateness; this is gonna take a huge change in my thinking.

Voice :  That change takes only a moment. Remember - the only real failure is when we fail to operate out of Love.    
 
Me : Lets get started ! I am selling love potions...anyone ?


 

 

Losing The Connection

Me :Why is that I feel that somedays you are not present in my life ?

Voice : Because you are absent with me. I am always present. I can never go anywhere.

Me : But at times, I feel so disconnected with you. I feel like you have gone away and I need something that tells me you are here with me right now and right here.

Voice : I am always deeply connected with you. I give you that experience continually.

Me : I haven't had any of those experiences for a long time now.

Voice : You mean like miracles ?

Me : Maybe...

Voice : What do experience and miracles mean to you ? You couldn't be talking about someone appearing in front of you from the wall in a bright white light or the sea parting way or you taking a flight on a golden chariot ? I am a little boring. That isn't my style these days.

Me : Then, what can tell me that you have been around me every time ? I had a rough day yesterday and I felt I was alone.

Voice : Then let me tell you about your day yesterday. I assure you I was looking into you continually. When you were walking with your dog in the garden in the morning, you sprained your ankle and fell on the ground. I know you were cursing me then. I had to do that cause a few seconds later a branch fell on the ground which was about to crush you which would have meant a month of being immobile. So I arrested your strides by creating the sprain and you just missed the branch from falling over you.

Later in the day, you were disappointed to lose a big customer. I was behind this. If I hadn't done this, you would signed the customer, but you would have lost all you savings to compensate him as he was very hard to please and would have directed a legal proceeding against you. I know you felt me absent here.

When you were making yourself a cup of tea today, you forgot to shut the cabinet door, so I simply nudged it a bit and saved your forehead a few stitches. You had some meetings this week, so I thought you would have hated the sight of stitches on your forehead. I was discreet here.

In the evening, you stepped outside to have a quick bite, but you only had enough money to pay for a small cup of coffee and you couldn't order that sandwich. I made you forget carrying your wallet, so you couldnt eat that sandwich as I knew his food was stale and unhygienic that day. But, I did ensure that when you searched your pocket, you would find a few notes that can get you a cup of coffee.

Also, you walked out of the house without locking your main door. And, suddenly you remembered to turn back all the way to lock the door. Yes, this meant you got delayed to watch the movie and you got upset. Well, I planted that thought in your head cause I wanted your dog and your house to be safe and yes, I got you to sit on the fifth row instead of the premium sofa seats. Those sofa seats had bugs.

And, when you went to bed that night, you were furious at me. I knew you had a long day, so I covered you in my blanket of white light, shut your mind of all thoughts, infused love in your heart  and gave you the deepest sleep. I was watching you even while you were asleep.  

Yes, I struggle to signal my presence every moment - maybe I am getting boring but I assure you I am with you EVERY MOMENT. I love you more that you can imagine.

Me : Wow. I don't know what to say..I feel so stupid. Now, I also remember something else...Were you not also behind getting my phone battery totally drained that night ? Because I had plans to shout at someone for something that was bothering me and surprisingly I don't feel the need right now to do it. It wouldn't have helped the situation for both of us. To avoid a totally meaningless confrontation, you drained my phone battery, didn't you ?  

Voice : That might have been a coincidence...        
      
Me : Thank you so much for watching over me. No matter what is happening, there is nothing to worry about. I am so overwhelmed. You just shifted my entire perspective. Think, I will watch out for the smallest details in my life and smile with you.

  

Why Cant I Read ?

Me : Why do I struggle to read ? I know so many of my friends who can finish reading fat books in just a couple of days ! How will I ever know more ?

Voice : What is there to know ?

Me : About anything ! About spirituality, about God, about the unknown, maybe learn from experiences of other people..

Voice : I have gifted you the special ability to be ' incapacitated ' when you try to read a book.

Me : How do you call this a gift ? How will I grow without divine wisdom  ?

Voice : Books are good. Reading is a good habit. But real experience is matchless. The Truth is beyond any Knowing.

Me : Yes, but everyone has experiences. How does it benefit me more ?

Voice : I work internally with you. To do that I need your mind to be free of clutter, pre-conceived ideas, impressions of peoples experiences, notions of good and bad, anticipations, other peoples ideologies, consequences of particular actions, etc. In other words I prefer you reasonably ignorant with a totally 'untrained' intellect. You have intelligence but instead of more help from books, I want to train your intellect to suit you best because you are an open soul. Maybe, I would even let it fade totally someday. Its the heart where I work from.

I will put you through experiences that would teach you and guide you. This is turn will help others when you share your stories. Why do you need a book for growth ? Keep my company in your heart and I will always reveal to you what you must know.  
With me, its a bigger job to deal with people with more knowledge, cause I then have to spend more time to clean up the mind, have them un-learn and then begin my work.

Me : So this makes sense now - Ignorance is bliss!

Voice : Real knowing is when you know there is nothing to know.

Me : Next time I come across a book with an interesting title, I will just prefer to take a walk in the garden with you. I will know what I need to know.
           

Inhale Love, Exhale Gratitude

Me : You know, I have always spent quiet time with myself to dream. I have dreamt of many things, but I have never got what I dreamt - I always got MORE than I ever imagined ! I feel so fortunate, so happy, so thankful and so peaceful. You were behind this, weren't you ? Why do I see others around me struggle to live the life of their dreams ?

Voice : Do you remember those days as a young child when you were playing football for your school, then you got into climbing mountains. Did you think of your future, ambition, career or what people would say ? You just did it as this was an expression of who you are.

Me : And who am I ?

Voice : You are Bliss. You are Love. You are Freedom. Everything your think, speak or say must originate from here.

Me : So you saying, I was unconsciously pursuing my love, feeling the freedom and joy from what I did and it brought me to who I am today ? I manifested everything in my life ?

Voice : Yes...with a little help from Me.

Me : Oh yes..I can see your hand in everything. I know that its only me getting in my own way. I just need to continue to live in freedom and love. So its really that simple..to strive to live a life that you resonate to, be natural, and whatever that is great for me will come to me.

Voice : Yes. Think, Speak and Do from the premise of Love. Just like a child. Love will find a way to lead you to Love. It will give you all that you need and more..That is the law.

 

Dreams Coming True

" All he did was imagine 
All he owned was dreams 

He had a wanderlust heart 
Where reality was without reason 

Gentle breeze caressed the day 
And hope had its way 

Songs poured from the heart,
Mind was at large   

As joy became the goal 
Life awakened within the soul

In each moment of peace 
Life carved its golden path 

Just sipping those cups of tea,
Dreams have come true for me."

I don't want this world !

Me: There is so much pain around. If you are all bliss, I am sure I don't want this. I want you. I feel I have never been so ready to give up this false world ! 

Voice: Wonderful.

Me: I want to give up everything and experience your Reality.

Voice: I want you to come to Me, not when you are defeated in this world, nor dejected. I want you to come to me and want me when you are enjoying this world, when you are loving everything about it - cause this is when you really want Me. 

Come to me for Love of Me where all the joys and peace of this world have no draw for you. Its easy to give up what disillusions you or when you are in despair and dejection. 

Me : Are you saying I must strive to find happiness and joy in this world only to give it all up, to come to You ? 

Voice : I am saying when you want Me enough, the thought of 'giving up' anything will not even cross your mind. Nothing will matter to you - no joy nor sorrow, nor pleasure or pain. You would have reached a time in your journey where even wanting Me will be willingly left to My Will. Thats when you ready to join Me.       

It must certainly not be the defeat in the world, but the victory of your unwavering heart that must draw you to Me.  

Voiceless Voice

Its that voice again. Its not important for me know who is speaking, where is it coming from and why do I hear it ? I have concluded long back that as long as you feel Love - there can be no doubt. The  The feeling of Love is unmistakable. Its a voice deep within that gently seeks to gain my attention. That seeks to guide, to inspire, to love, to smile. The voice is real and knows what I need to know and where I must go.

The voice appears when I use my mind more than I must, only to remind me to use my heart. Many times I have been given a question instead of an answer which has only helped me to repeatedly move inwards and use the gift of intuition.

Long before, I discovered I was talking to 'someone', I always felt I had company. Someone who has always been watching my back, someone who loves me, someone who shared a wonderful companionship without conditions.

The voice is always clear, loud and ever present. I just have to make sure I am not living with ear buds in my head.  

 " I am never silent. I speak eternally. 

The voice that is heard deep within the soul is my voice - that of guidance, intuition and inspiration. Those receptive to this voice, I speak."

 ~ Meher Baba.