My Faults

Me : With the faults that I see in myself, I am not sure if I am doing any spiritual progress at all. I have so many glaring weaknesses within me ..    

Voice : Thats arrogant.

Me : Now what's arrogant about this ?  

Voice : You tend to feel you are expressing humility by making that statement about your faults. In fact, it comes from arrogance and pride. Notice the ‘I' and ‘Me' in that statement. Only someone full of himself has a eye on his qualities.  

Me : Oh 

Voice : You highlight and notice your weaknesses and qualities only because you remember yourself more than God. Although, I can't notice any 'faults' in you.  

One who is absorbed in God is blissfully ignorant about his attributes. And, it's very likely he would be beyond judgement of others, too.

When you are attentive only on God, everything that you think would matter, just fades away in the background.   

Me : How do you always manage a contrarian view to everything I say ! 

Voice : ...The same way you manage a contrarian way of living since lifetimes.    

The Edge of Light

 

" The wind was blowing hard, 

I was standing on the edge 

Of the highest rock cliff there was,

Unmoved as the winds picked up pace.

 

This was the moment of truth, 

Separated only by fear

My heart was pounding, 

I could hear it speak.  

 Mind played with it's reasons,

But the heart remained undaunted 

I knew its not the dizzying heights, 

But myself that I must conquer. 

The storm was closing in,

Perhaps this was not the time

Here is where I can return to failure, 

And die another day.  

 Sometimes a jump to the other side, 

Is only a single decision away

I can choose the path of safety,  

But then, what will I live to be ? 

 

It is the end I will see,

For a new beginning to be.

Glimpse of God

Voice : You seemed dazed ? 

Me : The magic these mountains hold - what is it ? I was walking alone on the high ridge. And the clouds began it’s game of hide and seek with the setting sun. The colours in the sky were surreal. I felt I was walking on a bridge between heaven and earth. I could only think of You in the most natural and effortless way…..   

 

Voice : Hmm 

Me : I sat staring at the beauty and all of a sudden..I see only a bright expanse of whiteness. Like everything went - totally blank! For some moment in time I was seeing...nothing. I don’t even know how long it lasted. I remember feeling ecstatic. Maybe, I had passed out. 

Voice : You did not pass out. 

Me : I didn't ?

Voice : It wasn't a hallucination.  

Me : Then what happened ? 

Voice : You did not verbalise it, but you were longing from the depth of your heart to see Me. You wanted a glimpse of God in real form.

Me : But I didn’t see you.

Voice : Of course you saw Me - you saw Nothing. You thought you passed out but you were seeing Me.

Me : You ?? 

Voice : I am formless. How else can I appear in My real form to you ? You saw Everything that there is - in the magnificence of Nothing.   

Me : Oh My God  

Voice : Yes, that was God. It is not the sight, but the sensation that is Me.  

Me : No wonder I lost sense of time and I could not feel myself !!

Voice : On the contrary, you felt your Real Self, but not your body. 

Me : Yes!  

Voice : And you lost your sense of time because that was a moment in the Eternal Now, which is timeless. The ecstasy you felt for that moment was real but only to offer you a glimpse.

Me : Wow. I have held this thought to see You 'as You are' since a long time, but why did you choose this time to revel Your form to Me ? 

Voice : You chose this time. You were empty for Light to come in.   

Me : It's left me in a daze. Nothing seems to be worth my attention anymore, except You. I feel this world as a strange place to be.     

Voice : Bask in My Shadow as much as in My Light. Now, you know - that it's all nothing.