Listening ?

Me : I hope you are listening ? I want to talk to you right now..

Voice : Hahahahaha 

Me : What's so funny ? 

Voice : Because it is that funny.

Me : Alright, just tell me when you ready to listen and I can talk to you...

Voice : That is why it's so funny. When I am the One speaking through you - is it even possible for Me to NOT be listening to what I alone am speaking ?

Me : Hmmm 

Voice : That 'Hmmm' you just did in your head - I didn't miss that too. 

Me : I just wanted to make sure I have your attention...

Voice : If only you had an idea of how close I am to you, My dearest, you would know how much even your silence speaks to Me. 

 

My Faults

Me : With the faults that I see in myself, I am not sure if I am doing any spiritual progress at all. I have so many glaring weaknesses within me ..    

Voice : Thats arrogant.

Me : Now what's arrogant about this ?  

Voice : You tend to feel you are expressing humility by making that statement about your faults. In fact, it comes from arrogance and pride. Notice the ‘I' and ‘Me' in that statement. Only someone full of himself has a eye on his qualities.  

Me : Oh 

Voice : You highlight and notice your weaknesses and qualities only because you remember yourself more than God. Although, I can't notice any 'faults' in you.  

One who is absorbed in God is blissfully ignorant about his attributes. And, it's very likely he would be beyond judgement of others, too.

When you are attentive only on God, everything that you think would matter, just fades away in the background.   

Me : How do you always manage a contrarian view to everything I say ! 

Voice : ...The same way you manage a contrarian way of living since lifetimes.    

The Edge of Light

 

" The wind was blowing hard, 

I was standing on the edge 

Of the highest rock cliff there was,

Unmoved as the winds picked up pace.

 

This was the moment of truth, 

Separated only by fear

My heart was pounding, 

I could hear it speak.  

 Mind played with it's reasons,

But the heart remained undaunted 

I knew its not the dizzying heights, 

But myself that I must conquer. 

The storm was closing in,

Perhaps this was not the time

Here is where I can return to failure, 

And die another day.  

 Sometimes a jump to the other side, 

Is only a single decision away

I can choose the path of safety,  

But then, what will I live to be ? 

 

It is the end I will see,

For a new beginning to be.

Glimpse of God

Voice : You seemed dazed ? 

Me : The magic these mountains hold - what is it ? I was walking alone on the high ridge. And the clouds began it’s game of hide and seek with the setting sun. The colours in the sky were surreal. I felt I was walking on a bridge between heaven and earth. I could only think of You in the most natural and effortless way…..   

 

Voice : Hmm 

Me : I sat staring at the beauty and all of a sudden..I see only a bright expanse of whiteness. Like everything went - totally blank! For some moment in time I was seeing...nothing. I don’t even know how long it lasted. I remember feeling ecstatic. Maybe, I had passed out. 

Voice : You did not pass out. 

Me : I didn't ?

Voice : It wasn't a hallucination.  

Me : Then what happened ? 

Voice : You did not verbalise it, but you were longing from the depth of your heart to see Me. You wanted a glimpse of God in real form.

Me : But I didn’t see you.

Voice : Of course you saw Me - you saw Nothing. You thought you passed out but you were seeing Me.

Me : You ?? 

Voice : I am formless. How else can I appear in My real form to you ? You saw Everything that there is - in the magnificence of Nothing.   

Me : Oh My God  

Voice : Yes, that was God. It is not the sight, but the sensation that is Me.  

Me : No wonder I lost sense of time and I could not feel myself !!

Voice : On the contrary, you felt your Real Self, but not your body. 

Me : Yes!  

Voice : And you lost your sense of time because that was a moment in the Eternal Now, which is timeless. The ecstasy you felt for that moment was real but only to offer you a glimpse.

Me : Wow. I have held this thought to see You 'as You are' since a long time, but why did you choose this time to revel Your form to Me ? 

Voice : You chose this time. You were empty for Light to come in.   

Me : It's left me in a daze. Nothing seems to be worth my attention anymore, except You. I feel this world as a strange place to be.     

Voice : Bask in My Shadow as much as in My Light. Now, you know - that it's all nothing.

            

Prasad

Voice : You feeling a bit disappointed ? 

Me : A little bit.  

Voice : Because you didn’t get prasad at that temple ? 

Me : Yes. I had wished from my heart for your prasad and so its more upsetting to come empty handed. You never fail to the call of my heart. Wanting the prasad was only an excuse. 

But, perhaps it was meant to be. The temple was filled with too many people anyway. I understand it can get hard with so many people in one place. 

Voice : Do you remember removing your footwear outside the temple ? 

Me : Yes 

Voice : Where did you keep them ?  

Me : With an old lady who was sitting outside the entrance of the temple. She was unusual. She cleaned the dirt from the soles of my shoes and handed them over to me and she couldn’t stop smiling …she wasn’t even accepting money !

Voice : Shoes carry impressions of the person wearing them. You saw her just as an old lady. It wasn’t just the soles of your shoes, but your soul that was being given a loving hand by Me. This was My prasad to you. 

My Love itself is a prasad. My Love is the candy in physical form. And I won’t run out of candies..but it can change its form. Are you conscious enough to spot My prasad every day ? 

   

All things that try to hold me in lockets, keychains, photo frames, statues or candies will fall short for the one who looks deeper to only find that your life itself is God's greatest gift. 

God's ever-flowing Love is a prasad that never leaves any lover empty-handed. 

      

Become God

Me : First the pandemic, then Taliban fought to take over Afghanistan...now Russia is at war with Ukraine ! People around the world are suffering. These are testing times for humanity and we would see more... 

Voice : Hmm.. 

Me :  We have reached a critical point of imbalance in natural resources and destruction of our natural world. Our natural habitat is on the brink !

Voice : Hmm.. 

Me : We are dealing with unprecendetd challenge with mental health, sickness, violence..   

Voice : Hmm.. 

Me : The world seems to be in a chaos right now. And look at the plight of the people in Ukarine!  

Voice : Hmm.. 

Me : Please stop hmmm-ing to everything I say ! 

Voice : We can do OM ..

Me : Not funny

Voice : Okay. What do you want me to do ? 

Me : I am supposed to feel helpless - not you !

Voice : Not you either!

Me : But, I do feel so helpless. I desperately want to help..can I do something to change things ?

Voice : Yes you can 

Me : What  

Voice : Become one with God! 

Me : What about the strife and pain around ? 

Voice : Become one with God! 

Me : And let things just be messed up as they are ?

Voice : Become one with God! 

Me :  So I just sit around doing nothing to change the world ? 

Voice : Become one with God!

Me : Become one with God ! I get it, but how is it an answer to what I see and feel about the world ? 

Voice : What world ? The entire universe is inside you, not outside. Why dissipate all your energy in trying to ‘fix’ what doesn’t exist. Would you rather pay attention to the Ultimate Reality or its mere shadow ? You are your own reason for whatever you feel. 

When you become God, there remains nothing for you to ‘fix'. Become God - not helpless.    

Voice of Guidance

Me : How do I tune into the voice of my heart and not my head ? 

Voice : Why ? 

Me : What you mean why ?? For that connection with you ! 

Voice :  So you feel there is time then I am not connected to you ?  

Me : Like when I am using my head ? 

Voice : Are those thoughts in the head, yours ?

Me : Think I know where this is going …

Voice : Thoughts in the head or feeling in your heart are all Mine. In fact, there is no such thing as using the heart just like you would never say you are using your spleen to connect to me. Everything emerges from the functioning of the mind. What you call heart is nothing but a secondary functioning of your mind which is feelings.  

It’s a little strange to confine our connection to body parts.

 

Me : Hahaha. People speak about listening to one's heart and often I have listened to my mind that caused me to take bad decisions - that's you ? 

Voice : You believe there is anyone else ? 

Me : And, why would you make me do dumb things ? 

Voice : You are impelled to do things because of the vibration you hold. Your vibration determines your thoughts, words and action.

Me : Huh 

Voice : Love is the energy of our vibrational communication. It’s beyond physical labels of heart and mind. When you constantly live your life at a higher frequency, you live a guided life moment to moment. There is no feeling of separation from My guidance at any time. 

Me : So, it doesn’t make sense to say I am guided or even ask for guidance ??

Voice : For the one who lives in perfect surrender and inner silence - your head, your heart, your voice or My voice have no distinction. Everything is God-ordained and lovingly embraced. He knows the so-called wrong decisions are divine stimulus for closer companionship. What remains to interpret ? 

It is only when you feel the separation from Me, you are compelled to call out to Me to be present. This is the reason you seek My so-called guidance, messages, approvals and signs because you lack conviction in My everlasting presence. You make distinctions of receiving guidance through My Voice in your head or the heart. When the gentle caress of a breeze can be Me, when nothing exists but Me, to who does all the Voices belong to ? 

You may ask for My guidance or even label a certain feeling as guidance, but know you do so for your own sense of validation. My connection to all in creation is just the way you are connected to the air you breathe…every single moment.   

Me : Hmmm

Voice : The illusory diarchy of you and Me causes distinctions of My voice or your voice or the heart versus the head. For the one who knows no separation seeks no guidance as He knows there is never a moment of disconnection from God. In his highest state of inner connection with God, he knows the futility of making distinctions of the heart and mind. The source of All voices emerges only from One Source.   

Me : Sometimes I really take a bad decision ….

Voice : Bad and good is your judgement. not mine. In the same way, you judge voices of the heart and mind and hunt for signs and divine guidance. You are guided every moment but you can't totally accept it because of your bias and judgement of good and bad. Maybe, what you call a bad decision is the perfect outcome of your alignment with your vibration. Often your myopic vision and ignorance fails to comprehend that NOTHING can be a wrong decision.    

Me : Right now, you are speaking to my heart or my mind ?

Voice : Haha. I am not speaking at all nor are you listening as you understand. The subtle state of your current vibration is manifesting. Love is an energy that interprets itself.   

  

Like I said, our connection is beyond verbosity and distinctions of heart, mind or any other parts of the body. It is your current frequency that guides you to inspiration and guidance. The higher your frequency, the deeper the connection. When you feel divine love, both heart and mind do not exist.     

When you are vibrating at this frequency, you don't need to seek guidance, you simply become.     

Me :  And I was muddled up with voices in my head versus Your guidance... 

Voice : Simply align to higher vibration and you will feel no need to seek guidance.  

If I am God, I am in the voice in your head and in your heart. I am the origin of all voices. I am all there is. 

Me : You know you are a great Guardian of the Universe ?

Voice : I am the Guardian of YOUR Universe. Haven't taken My attention off you even for a fraction of a second - even before you knew of Me!     

Recluse

Me : Is being a recluse a bad thing ? 

 

Voice : Haha. Knew that was coming.

Me : No big deal to know - if you are in my head all the time!

Voice : It’s because 'I am in your head’ you have become a recluse !

Me : What ?

Voice : It’s just another quality. Not a stigma. Feeling lonely may become a problem, but choosing to be alone is different.  

And, really it’s because ‘I am in your head’ - like you said.   

Me : And how is that ? 

Voice : When you are alone by yourself, you are very naturally aware of My presence and this brings a feeling of fulfilment and so you never really feel alone. You are content in My company, not realising the missing social interaction.  

When you are with a lot of people, it’s not about the people you are with. It’s about you being absent with Me at that time. This distraction brings you the feeling of being alone inspite of a lot of people around. 

This is the reason why you feel you are lost in crowds and found in solitude. 

You find Me good company! I don't see choosing to hang around close friends a problem. 

Me : Ok, so I am not anti-social..

Voice : On the contrary, our deep connection allows Me to reach so many people through you. 

Me : How is that possible when I am not with anyone ?

Voice : Not with anyone only in the world of forms. But you are with the whole world when you are absorbed with Me. 

In the solitude of your surrender, you drift in My companionship. And since there is indivisible interconnectedness with all in creation, you allow My energy to flow to others without physical proximity. 

The feeling in your heart touches more people than you can understand. How is that anti-social ?  

       

New Age of Divine Manifestation

Me : You say a time will come when the world will turn to you.. 

Voice : That is My Manifestation. It will be a new age for humanity. 

Me : I can imagine a world where your pictures will adorn all homes, shops, cafes, schools and offices. And your prayers recited by millions of people around the world. The whole world will know of you! 

Voice : They will know of themselves. 

Me : Same thing, right ?  

Voice : There is a difference. 

Me :  What is that ? 

Voice : The coming age will experience the manifestation of God. It is inevitable. But, not in a way that you expect. Pictures of Me will be irrelevant to new mankind. Instead they will feel and live God. They will know they are not separate from God. 

Divinity with a form exists in your time, as it is necessary for your journey to raising your consciousness.They serve their purpose. 

The new age of mankind will recognise the beauty of All-Pervading God in all its glory, the magnificence of Divinity will shine forth in daily living, God will belong to no confinement to any forms, shrines and limitations. Mankind will feel divine love burst in their hearts and feel Divinity in each other and all aspects of creation. 

If My form was still worshipped, then My Manifestation would be incomplete. If places of worship still drew crowds, My Manifestation was yet to unfold. 

Me : Wow. Many expect the new age of spirituality would sweep the world in a way that people will follow God..

Voice : Why follow God when you can feel Him ? You can only ‘follow’ someone if you believe He is outside of you. 

Me : Can one expect a Divine Incarnation to unveil His form to the world ?

Voice : How is that an evolution of consciousness if mankind were to do the exact same thing - of looking for God outside of them ? Wouldn’t it be a true rise of consciousness if God became a living experience of each individual ? No limitations will define Divine glory as it has always happened. The coming age of mankind will be receptive to this higher ideal. 

Love in the heart of man itself will be My manifestation without form.         

Me : What a magical world that would be !

Voice : A golden age when Buddha or Rama will be forgotten for God. 

Mountain Home

Voice : So you are not doing anything about that dream of yours ? 

Me : No. I don’t feel driven about it all of a sudden. Its not getting me excited as I always used to be. Find that weird. 

Voice : I know. You always wandered off everyday in your head imagining a lone cottage in the icy remote snow mountains. You got past every day with this imagination. I know how you even worked up snowstorms in your head for that real mountain feel...

Me : Ha ha. You know every detail of my dreams!

Voice : I know each detail..all your dreams and your emotions. You wished for a cottage high up in the mountains…stone walls, fireplace, large windows overlooking the majestic snow peaks, surrounded by thick oak forests, wooden floor, cozy study room with your writing desk, rocking chair in the sun drenched porch, hot cups of ginger tea, backyard kitchen, snow flakes gathering in your porch …you even imagined the cedar wood fragrance in the air and that deep silence with nobody around for miles…I know each thought that ran into your head…   

Me : Wow, you really are attentive to each thought of mine.  

Voice : I always am. I also know the deeper feeling behind your thoughts. 

Me : You know I have held this dream in my heart for so long and I have reached a point in my life where I can create this dream into a reality…you have given me all the resources and opened doors that I just have to walk into. But I don’t understand how I am not excited about it -  did the desire just vanish from my consciousness ? 

Voice : Maybe, it transcended. To something bigger ? 

Me : What does that mean ? 

Voice : You dreamt, but were detached from it. The dream brought you the feeling of peace, stillness, joy, love - and now, the same feelings have magnified into your consciousness. You have unconsciously become a perfect match for a deeper experience of the same feelings. And when you are detached from results, you allow dreams to get bigger. Few know this. 

   

Me : Hmm..

Voice : Your dreams have played their part perfectly well. It has gradually opened your heart and you will be drawn to deeper experiences of love. All desires, dreams and ambition gently fade away in the background. Contentment is no longer a battle. The world of pursuit is replaced with joys of inner journey. The Truth seems closer and your path takes a turn from all that you have planned. Happiness is redefined. This is a natural state of being that is not earned from repressing or pursuing anything. Love will pursue you. You have 'allowed' pure love to flow to it's own destiny.  

Me : So, my mountain dreams played the most the important part ? Even if I don't have what I visualised ?

Voice : You get what you feel. 

Me : Oh

Voice : One can go higher by allowing oneself to go beyond imagination. 

Me : Meaning ? 

Voice : For those detached, images have no meaning. The heart only lives with the feeling. That way what you have or don't have in the world of forms doesn't matter. Mountains were your impression of freedom and unbounded peace only because of your sense of imprisonment at that time. But, overtime you have grown to inner freedom and joy in the present moment. The clutches of future have lost it's power of you.   

     

Me : Hmm. Okay so tell me if God is represented in so many 'visual versions' and if I hold any image of God in my mind, I can possibly get something else??

Voice : You hold God not in your mind, but in your heart. God is not Him or Her or It. The feeling you hold in your heart - that is His real version.The truest version of your life will always be in what you constantly feel.

Me : Wow

Voice : Humanity has been taught to pursue dreams. I help you transcend the imaginary. 

Me : As always, talking to you feels so good. 

Voice : ...As good as it feels like the warmth of a fire on a cold winter night in the mountains?    

      

Me : Haha. Actually yes!

Voice : Raising your consciousness brought you to know the futility of the pursuit for happiness outside of you. 

  

Your abode in the Himalayas is truly manifesting, but in the serenity of your heart - where everything exists.

Shrine Of God

Me : I feel Your presence so strongly in the Shrine.

Voice : It would be a mistake to confine Me to a Shrine. 

Me : I know you are Omnipresent. But, I feel so drawn to visit your Tomb-Shrine. You are clearly more present here than anywhere else. Thousands of people feel the same, too. Its undeniably soothing for the heart inside. 

Voice : That is true. But, do you know why everyone feels that ?

Me : Why? 

Voice : I am All-pervading and everywhere. I am in the Tomb, too. But, you feel My presence stronger inside than anywhere else because when you step in, your mind spontaneously brings wholehearted awareness of My Being. This is Divine Awareness. Your awareness of Me creates My presence wherever you are. 

When the number of people holding the same Divine Awareness increase, the atmosphere surcharges with this deep common feeling from the heart and it contributes to creating even a stronger presence of Me in one spot.  

To find Me at one place and not the other, is only an oscillating awareness of Me.  

As man struggles to quieten his mind, statues, images of God and places of worship will remain, to help keep awareness of God in a confinement as they understand - until the inner awakening will bring man to feel My presence in the gentle caress of a breeze, as much as in a Tomb. 

Saw God In The Clouds

Me : I saw your face in the clouds today !! Yay !

Voice : Did I look good ? 

Me : You looked awesome !

Voice : Sometimes, I feel my hair looks unkempt.. 

Me : Haha. You were looking perfect. Was so thrilled to see that sight today. Your face emerged very clearly in the clouds. Made me feel happy and connected to you. Thank you so much.

Voice : You like to see me more often ? 

Me : Of course. It fills my heart with joy !! 

Voice : Then, next time watch the cloud closely. So closely that you realise I am not in the cloud, but I AM the cloud.  

Know that I am not ‘in’ anything - I am it. Then, you will see me very moment.