Fear

Voice : Feeling the fear ?   

Me : Damn yeah ! It's been making subtle appearances.   

Voice : Great. Fear has found you again ! 

Me : And you sounding very delighted right now ?

Voice : I shouldn't be ? 

Me : No! Why am I feeling this fear ? You are so close to me…feeling fear is not a good thing !  

Voice : It's a great thing to feel fear.

Me : Huh ??

Voice : For long fear has been feared. Fear is your ally to an incredible opportunity for growth. Without the stimulus of fear, your life can remain stagnant and you live below your true potential. Rare ones look at emergence of fear as a opportunity and grab it with both hands. They choose to transcend it because they know the incredible inner transformation and jump in consciousness that lies on the other side of fear. 

Me : Hmm

Voice : You are at an incredible time in the history of mankind. Fear is an Ascension Symptom, rather than a limiting belief !

Me : This is getting exciting...

Voice : Notice how subtle levels of fear influence your experience of love and wisdom. Fear, if not itself feared brings you to greater awareness and greater opportunity to make choices. It can be tricky as your habitual response to fear is usually to shrink rather than use the fear to expand consciousness. 

Fear brings you to the moment of heightened awareness…it is a gift. As you anchor in the heart, fear now becomes more visible; it assists you to be aware of its vast infiltration into consciousness. This experience informs you and you can align your choices toward healing, growth and transformation. Remember, when anchored in your heart, fear can stimulate awareness that something is not “quite right’, thus serving a higher role in your awakening.

Me : Wow !

Voice : Many dodge fear at the first the emergence of it and seek relief from the sensation rather than growth through the sensation. Almost everything that is constricting emerges from fear. Very few take steps to walk right into their fears allowing the fright to surface deeply in the heart and use the experience to break barriers, transcend the cause of fear and hold the divine hand.  

Me : Deep..

Voice : I was waiting for you to feel frightened and face your fears. How else will you know who you are ? How else will you ascend to the next level of growth ? How else will you rise with your own power and limitless possibilities ? How else will you get the opportunity to dive deeper into My Love ?  

Me : You don't like me getting comfortable for too long, do you ?

Voice : I love you too much, to just let you be.

Me : Haha. I will take that. 

Voice : Sometimes, the things you do in life is because of who you are - not because of who you have to become. And it's important to keep this in your awareness, because you can get caught up in fruit of action instead of the might of the action which is the real definition of you. 

Choosing to dodge fear, most of humanity has created a comfortable space for themselves and held themselves back from becoming what they can really be. This side-steppling eventually catches up with inner disruptions and only goes away with transcendence.    

Seeking assurance at each step is lack of faith. How can there be expansion without trust ?   

Me : So I go hunting for my fears ? 

Voice : There isn't a need for it. Fear will always find a way to find you and when it does, examine it’s origin and choose wisely. I am Love and ironically fear is the most compelling impulse I use for the greatest benefit !  

Me : I thought surfacing of fear in itself is a sign of weakness but you have changed my thinking !    

Voice : Life of love is a choice, and fear is simply a catalyst to exercise this choice. 

If you haven't felt fear for a long time, ask yourself if you are living to your highest pontential or being just comfortable ?  

Free is the man, who is able to follow what he feels inwardly challenging every norm, routine, doctrine, belief, theory and the debility of a conditioned mind. 

When heart dictates your mind and inspires your actions, you are a Braveheart. True to yourself. True to the world. True to God.  

When the wave of transformation begins to rise, your brave-hearted choices will keep you afloat.  

When a surfer sees a big wave, it is courage in his heart that helps him ride the wave, just as he knows the real drowning for him lies in just standing and staring from the shoreline. He feels the fear of a big wave but inner awareness guides him to make choices that help him become a mere spectator or a great surfer. 
  
Rock climbing is familiar to you. Maybe it's a good idea for you to try surfing...

Me : Is a tidal wave coming ??       

Voice : Nothing a good surfer can’t handle. Humanity will be gifted the opportunity to choose….once again.  

Entanglement In The Divine Paradigms

Me : For God’s sake, please explain why did I just snap ? I wake up early to meditate hoping I can remain balanced through the day. When I sit to meditate I feel the serenity within but I fail to understand why do I remain susceptible to bouts of unexplained agitation that surface without any real provocation...sometimes irrational ? This is not making sense. 

Voice : Yes that can be unsettling sometimes.

Me : The heck it does! Especially when I take the effort towards my well-being everyday. I want You to answer me why does this happen ??

Voice : Maybe because you meditate..

Me : Please cut the riddles. 

Voice : Just like many, you have this notion of graduating to 'your idea' of spiritual ideals in your persona because you indulge in divine practices and meditation. Sure, divine practices have their merits but what do you really term as 'merits' is very different from what I regard as real benefit. 

Your idea of being free of attributes that you dislike within you because you get closer to God is misplaced. On the contrary because of your closeness to me, your attributes good and bad both begin to surface. I am only interested in your eternal spiritual freedom and this can only happen when your excess baggage of age old karmas expend themselves to create the most important and eternal Divine Balance - the priceless clean karmic slate that eludes even the most austere seeker !       

Me : Hmm 

Voice : God is beyond good and bad and your divine practices bring you closer to God, not closer to 'Good-liness'.   

Me : Wow

Voice : Because of your conditioning and beliefs about the spiritual path and God you begin to worry about the qualities that you don't like and completely overlook the subtle journey of divine companionship that is taking momentum within you. 

My work is to free you from what binds you and because you remember Me, I remember you. And my way of remembering you is to remove sparks of obstructing karmic threads that begin to play out..even the good needs to be balanced with the opposites and this mystical working is beyond the understanding of anyone. This is why dropping judgements of self and others is indispensable. 

Me : Yes it's hard to fathom this working.. 

Voice : Even the mind may seem to desert you. Allow the mind to do what it wants. The churning will be unsettling. 

Me : It can get really get hard to remain sane during that time.

Voice : Remember, this is the nature of the mind but when you feel loss of control in your head - always know that your heart remains with Me. You are never deserted.    

Me : But why do things suddenly come up uninvited in the mind ?

Voice : Your age old karmic imprints are stored in the mind. You expend your impressions even through thinking. The world condemns negative thoughts but often they surface as thoughts and expend themselves at the level of thought. This means you escaped putting it into action and yet freed yourself of the binding impressions! 

  

Me : Wow. Haven't heard that before. 

Voice : So let the thoughts assail you...try not to serve them tea while they visit you. 

Me : Haha 

Voice : Instead of negative or positive thinking be concerned only about 'God-thinking'. This is the leap that you want.     

Me : Hmm

Voice : Trust Me and My working. You will be able to recognise the deliberation while being in the midst of turmoil.   

You may work to get over the notion that you or others who connect with God have left their inherent attributes behind and become sculpted images of Divinity. That will be contrary on the path of love which is self-effacement.  

Often attributes will be so glaring in it's honesty that it will surprise you and others who search for spiritual ideals in men because what one seeks is beyond ideals.      

Goal is neither being bad nor being good, but freedom from both. As long as you keep your awareness of My presence, you will permit Me to work without resistance.     

 

Me : So does meditation help at all  ??

Voice : Meditation can help you to step back and view the interplay with deeper awareness and reflect without reaction. To pursue 'being good' to the extent that 'bad' causes a vehement reaction within you will derail you.  

 

The laid down ethos of seeking God may remain entanglement for most spiritual seekers. Effacement is for very few; which is beyond moulds, paradigms and tenets.

  

Me : Deeply profound..

Voice : Your goal is not to seek, but allow being sought. Your goal is not good-ness, but God. This knowing is your freedom.  

Me : Wow

Voice : You may be left living without the cloak of 'spiritual ideals' but a cloak is only a cloak. 

With Reality within your grasp, nothing else matters. It is what happens towards the beginning of an End..       

Just You And Me

Voice : Do you love Me ?

 

Me : Of course I do! 

Voice : Then this can work smoothly for you. 

Me : You have a lifehack for me ??  

Voice : You can call it that.

Me : I am all ears.. 

 

Voice : By creating a provision for Me in your life you can remarkably alter everything and keep growing in love which is the essence of divine life. 

 

Try to gradually and consciously live your life like there is none - absolutely nobody except just you and Me in this world. 

There exists other forms but they are only versions of Me. There is none besides Me. Keep this thought constantly playing in your mind. The forms will be deceptive, but you must remain with the conviction that it is Me alone behind each form that you see. Let the journey of your life only be between you and Me alone.  

Be unwavering in this awareness and soon this will become a part of your evolving consciousness. Not everyone can view this effortlessly but My Love can make this possible, if you choose.   

This shift of thinking may be a small one, but carries monumental consequences. 

Me : Hmm

Voice : You know separative existence cannot be the path to enlightenment. 

Me : Yes.

Voice : Remember all actions of others is Me. All words spoken by others is Me alone. It's Me you are free to like or dislike in equal measure. It’s only you and Me playing this life together in this world of forms.  

Me : Just You and me ? Hmm..okay. I will try go deep with this. This sounds like a very good liberating idea.    

Voice : You will be able to step back from ignorance with My help and smile at My game where the only loss is losing sight of Me and the only victory that counts is the sight of Me in everyone. 

Until then, this life of yours....it's just between you and Me and nobody else. Let it be like going to the movies.

Me : I like movies with delightful endings.  

Voice : Seventh heaven, I promise. 

  

Having Nothing In Everything

Me : I know in my heart that only God is real and everything else in the world is a mirage...an illusion. And You know how I feel about You. 

Voice : I know.

Me : Then what am I doing here in the material world ? You have given me unexpected luxuries in my life. I have never imagined such comforts. I am living a life of material abundance. It has never been my direct pursuit. It seems like I allowed things to materialise, but is this what I need ? 

And you have just bestowed upon me another material gift ! It’s nice to have it but does it mean I am still a lost soul in the world of forms ? Do I have this because I am still very distant from God and my journey is longer ??

Voice : I like how you think. I am very happy that you wish for Me. I know you long for Me but there is much to be done.  

Me : What is left to be done ?? Entangle me further in the material world to test My love for you ? 

Voice : For the one who knows, what avail is any test ? Unlike what many say, God never tests - he knows every heart. I will never test you. I can only love.  

Me : Then what is left to be done with me ?? This 'Everything' is nothing and we both know it. 

Voice : You love me. You have no doubt about My Infinity and Love. You believe only God is real and this world is nothing but an illusion. But, this you know in theory. You take My word for it and take what I say to be true. But I want to give you a real experience of what you understand only in words. Yes I have placed you in the material world. I will give you all the luxuries and comforts life has to offer. People will refer to this as an abundant life. 

Me : Do I need material luxuries or God ?

Voice : I have placed you where you need to be. This is My place for you for a reason. 

Me : Why ?

Voice : Do you like to eat bitter gourd ?  

Me : No. 

Voice : If you do not like to eat bitter gourd, it is only because you have tasted it before. How else will you be convinced of it's taste unless you have eaten it first ? No matter how hard I may try to make you understand taste, you will only be convinced though the experience of personally consuming it.

Me : True

Voice : This is experience. Experience brings conviction. Conviction is unwavering and firm. This conviction is necessary to walk on the path of love. Then no distractions can tempt your attention. You are prepared from within. 

Me : Hmm

Voice : I want you to have more and more of luxuries, stimulate your senses, create material wealth and recognition, so that you will know from real experience the emptiness of it all ! 

If you continue to keep your heart lost in Me, in time you will gain Divine Detachment and smile at the worthlessness of it all ! It will no more be just a theoretical understanding. 

Me : Wow

Voice : You have desires but fulfilling those desires itself will bring you the experience of futility and then you will have no desire for anything except Me from the core of your being. You will no more exert to discard anything. The grip of the worldly possessions and it's affairs will fall away like autumn leaves from your life irrespective of it's presence or absence. 

Me : You are such an incredible Master !   

Voice : You are My incredible one. 

Me : Thank you

Voice : A journey of many lifetimes needs deeper work to set one free. 

What can you forsake if you possessed nothing ? When you begin to adapt to your life of comforts and when you have gathered enough to lose…wouldn't it be the right time for My call in your heart ?

Me : Wow

Voice : Many come to God when they are defeated, drained with life, have lost everything, mentally disturbed or physically suffering.

But when the one who has everything and is amidst of life of possessions, social recognition, material comforts, health and accomplishments decides to forsake it all in an instant for God - he has truly chosen the Divine Path. 

Let not the defeat in the world bring you to Me. Renounce when you have everything !

Me : Never looked at it that way ! Incredible.  

Voice : It is easy to say that everything belongs to God as long as you continue being a recipient of material wealth, but when things begin to be taken away, it suddenly becomes very hard for the seeker to accept that nothing was ever his. And this holds true even for your relationships.  

Remember, real success in the material world is working to have it all and successfully arriving at a point where you can live as though nothing was ever yours, nothing is and nothing will ever be.   

It is then the real experience of worthlessness of everything except God which enthrals the seeker from the deepest core of his being. His heart is ready beyond any doubts.   

Me : Woah !

Voice :  Abundance is divine love in the heart of man. Nothing else. 

                          

Love is the Answer

Voice : Love is the answer, My dearest.  

Me : Really ? You can atleast wait until I find words to frame my question ? 

Voice :  Whatever your question, love is the answer. 

Me : Okay so I have nothing to ask. 

Voice : But you still have questions inside you

Me : What do you want me to do with them ?

Voice : Absorb yourself in Me. Allow My everflowing love to touch your heart. You will experience love as the answer to the question that doesn't exist...   

      

Rip Your Heart

Voice : I will rip your heart apart !

Me : Is that a threat ?

Voice : So fortunate to receive a direct threat from Me !  

Me : You love Me, don't you ? 

Voice : More than you can love your own self.

When love is at it's highest, it flows like a tidal wave destroying all falseness in its wake - only to unveil your real Self. You ask for love but can you welcome it's majesty? 

I will burn you in the flames of agony. I will turn the world against you. You will be betrayed and deserted. The humiliation will break you completely. I will destroy all that you have worked to create. I will shatter your dreams and bring you to your knees.You will loose all that you could fall back on …your family, your friends, material possessions, titles and even hope. Your body will crumble with physical pain. You will be in a state of utter despair with physical and mental agony. The hopelessness will leave you with nothing. 

Me …and that nothing brings me everything ?

Voice : Not yet. Pain is yet to reach the intensity. 

Me : How can more pain can even be even possible from this point ? 

Voice : Freedom from cycles of birth and death after million of lifetimes has a price..price of unveiling yourself of layers, layers and layers. 

Me : Deeper pain ? 

Voice : Your heart will shred into pieces when you will feel My desertion. The feeling of My absence will break you down further and numb your senses. This will be My final dagger into your heart. 

You will call for Me and yet fail to hear My voice. The unbearable pain will compel every cell of your being to ache for Me. From the deepest core of your heart you will cry out for God - that will be the moment of My manifestation within you.  

In the utter emptiness of your being, I am. 

Until then, you are only on the shores of Divine Love.   

Attribute Everything...Really Everything !

Voice : Attribute everything! 

Me : Huh ? 

Voice : Yes! Attribute EVERYTHING to Me. Not just when you are feeding a dog, serving the needy, helping the poor or sitting in silence.

I am also present when you speak angrily with someone. I am present when you cheat your friend, exhibit pride or even lie! I am equally present in all your lustful actions. I am present with all your actions and inactions ! 

There is nothing you cannot attribute to Me just as there is no place I am not.

I am also present when you think I am absent !

Me : Woah. I sense the might in your words.

Voice : And guess what ?

Me : What ?

Voice :  All the so-called wrong decisions you made - I was present.  

Me : Sigh..

Voice : Comprehend My Infinity. 

Me : Hard to fathom.. 

Voice : Not harder than how you take me to be omnipresent, but effortlessly make to be absent with what doesnt agree to your mind. 

To be fully with Me, I want you first to become free of your ownself.    

Me : Don’t you think it's rather easy or tricky to take no ownership of one’s actions and blame You for everything !? 

Voice : And yet you will fail to do so. Only the fortunate ones can do it. When this seeps deep in your consciousness, you will feel freedom from your ownself.  

 

How wonderful if you can really take no responsibility of your actions ! Do you know the real meaning of it ? 

Me : Tell me

Voice : As you gradually attribute all your actions to Me, you begin to form a greater conviction that even actions of others are Mine too and you are able to remain undisturbed by anyone's actions. Judgements will gradually perish towards your own self and that of others. Your bindings begin to loosen their grip over you and you feel free.  

Me : Hmm 

Voice : As long as you hand over ownership for everything to Me, you won't have to be busy wallowing in what you don't like, but instead stay happy in My love. Your own changing vibration will begin to determine your course of actions. 

Imagine being able to step aside and watch your own movie play out. Calmly attributing everything to me; My unfathomable work will make you smile in silence.   

Me : Why are you telling me all this ? 

Voice : Because I know how bounded you are. Our companionship ought to bring you closer to Me, not widen the gap of where you are with Me. 

Before you knew of God, you were blissfuly unaware of good and bad which in turn kept you free. Now, instead of feeling total freedom, you are bound than ever before with the most sought designation in the world as 'Lover of God'. Unburden yourself. 

Me : Hmm

Voice : Do you see the funny side ?

Me : Well..

Voice : You think that bad guy has a long way to go? You think your mother-in-law is off the path ? You feel sorry for that lazy guy who sleeps all day or your 'God-lover friend' whose work is full of imperfections or that cousin who calls God a delusional idea?   

Me : So are you saying that as most of us who are on the spiritual path or on this quest to attain God could be actually ironically going...nowhere ? 

Voice : When you believe you are 'on the path' or you made it to a 'God lover's spiritual fraternity', you have created your first big hurdle. 

Me : Damn. That's how it works everywhere in world ! How can that be an impediment? 

Voice : It shouldn't. But often it becomes like a backdoor entry into a deeper trap of duality using Me ! 

Me : Deeeep ! 

Voice : Take time to reflect over it.

Me : I will 

Voice : Jump over the notions of good and bad and know I am the One behind everything, especially those most 'unGod-like things' - they play the biggest part in duality to decondition the mind of an aspirant.  

Attribute everything to Me without using your own filters. Your conviction here will determine your freedom or lack of it.  

Real freedom is something else. I will help you feel it.  

Me : Because I am special to you, aren't I ?

Voice : And this becomes the second hurdle..

Two Choices

Voice : What if I gave you 2 choices of how you could live ?

Me : Before I fall for your tricks, please clearly identify them..

Voice : One is where you will always feel My Love and be happy.. 

Me : I will take it !  

Voice : And the other is where you will feel deep pain, but you will feel My Love even deeper. What would you choose ? 

Me : Now this sounds like you..don't want to make things too easy, right ? 

Voice : Choose ..

Me : I choose the former - happy and little bit of your Love. Who chooses pain ? 

 

Voice : One doesn't choose pain..one only chooses more Love. 

Me : Hmm

Voice : Because he knows only Love is real. 

The choices you make keep you lingering in this dream. Choosing the latter would not mean choosing pain…it would simply mean choosing Love over everything. And, when you choose with conviction, the pain itself looses its grip over you. 

Me : So that's why they say the Path of Love is the path for the Bravehearts. 

Voice : Remember these lines ? 

"What can a heartache be, 

Laced in your divine love ?

What does pain remain to be,

For the one laying at your feet ?"

These lines are from the poetry you wrote a year back. You may forget, but I remember each word you write. 

Me : Wow ! 

I take a long time to grasp what I write. I don't live these lofty lines. I think I will still settle for the first option.

Voice : You have already made a choice...much before you came into being. Why do you think we are so close?    

Angel

Me : I love Angel. 

Voice : I know. When you love with all your heart, I always know because I receive it.  

Me : Is this called attachment in some way ?

Voice : Ha ha. I know that you have been hearing that often. 

Me : Well...

Voice : The question arose from your mind, not your heart. Now, what I tell you would be good to share with everyone.

Me :  Okay.

Voice : Attachment and detachment both carry deeper interpretations. Pure love is free of these interpretations. 

Me : How ?  

Voice : Attachment seeks to possess. Fear is the base for this feeling. Attachment arises from the emptiness of one’s being. It is a constriction of consciousness. It seeks self-gratification. It's a desire that imprisons. 

Do you see this between you and Angel ? 

Me : Nope. There is no fear. I feel she has opened up my heart and I only feel..more deeply.    

Voice : Good. And Angel is not attached to you, either.

Me : Really ?

Voice : Fiery pure love can appear strange to many. Often, this will be misinterpreted as attachment. Her love for you is fiery, fearless and unconditional.    

Me : Hmm 

Voice : Now lets understand the other word used - ‘detachment’. 

Me : Yes. Am often told to stay reasonably detached. 

Voice : Reasonably detached ? This is an amusing choice of words.. 

Me : Spiritual seekers use this often. 

Voice : Yes. Most aspirants advocate or been advised 'detachment', but this takes one further away from the supreme goal of Love. 

Me : How ? 

Voice : In reality, detachment cannot be a goal for anyone. If your desire is detachment, know that you are embarking on just another strong attachment - 'attachment to the idea of detachment.' 

Divine detachment simply emerges. It can never come as a pursuit. Any such attempt is a mental exercise that causes further binding. Only when one is drowned in the fire of pure love, detachment becomes an experience. It is a state of Being that arrives afterwards, not before on the divine path. 

Detachment remains only a word, until the intensity of Love consumes one's false Self.  

Me : Oh  

Voice : And, in true detachment, one is oblivious of his own sense of detachment. Since he is not attached to anything not even his physical self, the idea of detachment is alien to him. 

Instead of understanding divine detachment fully, humanity has crowned this misinterpretation and only succeeded in constricting consciousness from it's full expansion. It’s a life of half measure and in many cases a life of disguised indifference.  

Me : Beautiful. How did we get to this point  ? 

Voice : Because of self-preservation. You seem to understand it is easier to withhold part of yourself in the guise of detachment. It seems easier to protect your own emotions with the distance. You build layers to protect your heart. But, pure hearts will always have vulnerability. Yes, it can break easily but remember hearts that are filled with love, when broken, only pour out more love. 

How do you think I prefer you live .. protecting yourself your entire life ?

Me : Hmm 

  

Voice : Angel is in your life to expand your consciousness beyond the interpretation of attachment or detachment. She is in your life to give you the opportunity to love fully and completely. She is here to rip you heart open so you can feel love, receive love and grow in love. You will feel its glory, the joy, the pain, the sorrow, the exuberance, the anguish...all of it is part of experiencing the glory of pure love. 

You are giving all of yourself not really to Angel but to pure love that she symbolises. The reward of love lies in total immersion.

That is why I would rather you live in the world expressing love, rather than meditate for hours everyday. Love and God mean the same. 

  

Me : Wow. I feel normal now. Thank you. 

Voice : How fortunate are you to have this opportunity !

She is helping you grow and you have given yourself fully and held nothing back. You feel her heart and she feels yours. You devote yourself for her comfort, you are prepared to go any distance to give her the best. You have spared no part of yourself to be attentive to her smallest needs. It was easy to find reasons to shorten or skip her walks in so many years but something made you choose her over everything. This is the nature of love. 

Any other way is really distance from your own self. How can any interpretation of detachment even begin to capture this ? 

Me : I wasnt like this. 

Voice : I know. Just like many, you took shelter under the guise of 'spiritual detachment' to get closer to God but were actually distant from Him. You only succeeded to build walls of indifference and carved a barren living that was yet to taste the glory of love. You wanted God for your 'Self', but only when you forget your 'Self', can He be found. Angel was to take you away from looking at your own Self.  

If you create distance from My own creation, how can you love God fully ?

Me : So you sent Angel to bring this love into my life ? 

Voice : Love was always there inside you…she walked to you with the keys.  

Me : Sure did. But I feel deep pain when she is in pain.. 

Voice : Enlightened ones thank God not just for the joy, but especially for the pain. They know the mysteries of divine path. They dont fear the pain of love, but dread to have never had the opportunity to immerse in pure love. 

Let not the noise of words outside you of attachment and detachments dim the light of love. Grow deeper. Love deeper. What else is real ? There is no effacement of Self without selfless caring and giving for another.      

Remember, in the pursuit of detachment, you are present. In loving, I am present. 

Me : Wow

Your precious human birth is a gift and this gift turns into a blessing only with the magic of love. You are not expected to be a stone again. Let the intensity of emotions surface. Allow yourself to love and be loved. Cry with joy and pain. Become a human fully before you may become God.

Me : Beautiful. 

Voice : Angel symbolises love in the gross world. She has drawn circumstances to bring you closer to your own Self.   

When the time is right, the purity of this love will lift you from where you are, to be where you need to be...that will be My part. 

Me : Woah

Voice : Angel.. interesting name. Just a dog, you think ?