Entanglement In The Divine Paradigms

Me : For God’s sake, please explain why did I just snap ? I wake up early to meditate hoping I can remain balanced through the day. When I sit to meditate I feel the serenity within but I fail to understand why do I remain susceptible to bouts of unexplained agitation that surface without any real provocation...sometimes irrational ? This is not making sense. 

Voice : Yes that can be unsettling sometimes.

Me : The heck it does! Especially when I take the effort towards my well-being everyday. I want You to answer me why does this happen ??

Voice : Maybe because you meditate..

Me : Please cut the riddles. 

Voice : Just like many, you have this notion of graduating to 'your idea' of spiritual ideals in your persona because you indulge in divine practices and meditation. Sure, divine practices have their merits but what do you really term as 'merits' is very different from what I regard as real benefit. 

Your idea of being free of attributes that you dislike within you because you get closer to God is misplaced. On the contrary because of your closeness to me, your attributes good and bad both begin to surface. I am only interested in your eternal spiritual freedom and this can only happen when your excess baggage of age old karmas expend themselves to create the most important and eternal Divine Balance - the priceless clean karmic slate that eludes even the most austere seeker !       

Me : Hmm 

Voice : God is beyond good and bad and your divine practices bring you closer to God, not closer to 'Good-liness'.   

Me : Wow

Voice : Because of your conditioning and beliefs about the spiritual path and God you begin to worry about the qualities that you don't like and completely overlook the subtle journey of divine companionship that is taking momentum within you. 

My work is to free you from what binds you and because you remember Me, I remember you. And my way of remembering you is to remove sparks of obstructing karmic threads that begin to play out..even the good needs to be balanced with the opposites and this mystical working is beyond the understanding of anyone. This is why dropping judgements of self and others is indispensable. 

Me : Yes it's hard to fathom this working.. 

Voice : Even the mind may seem to desert you. Allow the mind to do what it wants. The churning will be unsettling. 

Me : It can get really get hard to remain sane during that time.

Voice : Remember, this is the nature of the mind but when you feel loss of control in your head - always know that your heart remains with Me. You are never deserted.    

Me : But why do things suddenly come up uninvited in the mind ?

Voice : Your age old karmic imprints are stored in the mind. You expend your impressions even through thinking. The world condemns negative thoughts but often they surface as thoughts and expend themselves at the level of thought. This means you escaped putting it into action and yet freed yourself of the binding impressions! 

  

Me : Wow. Haven't heard that before. 

Voice : So let the thoughts assail you...try not to serve them tea while they visit you. 

Me : Haha 

Voice : Instead of negative or positive thinking be concerned only about 'God-thinking'. This is the leap that you want.     

Me : Hmm

Voice : Trust Me and My working. You will be able to recognise the deliberation while being in the midst of turmoil.   

You may work to get over the notion that you or others who connect with God have left their inherent attributes behind and become sculpted images of Divinity. That will be contrary on the path of love which is self-effacement.  

Often attributes will be so glaring in it's honesty that it will surprise you and others who search for spiritual ideals in men because what one seeks is beyond ideals.      

Goal is neither being bad nor being good, but freedom from both. As long as you keep your awareness of My presence, you will permit Me to work without resistance.     

 

Me : So does meditation help at all  ??

Voice : Meditation can help you to step back and view the interplay with deeper awareness and reflect without reaction. To pursue 'being good' to the extent that 'bad' causes a vehement reaction within you will derail you.  

 

The laid down ethos of seeking God may remain entanglement for most spiritual seekers. Effacement is for very few; which is beyond moulds, paradigms and tenets.

  

Me : Deeply profound..

Voice : Your goal is not to seek, but allow being sought. Your goal is not good-ness, but God. This knowing is your freedom.  

Me : Wow

Voice : You may be left living without the cloak of 'spiritual ideals' but a cloak is only a cloak. 

With Reality within your grasp, nothing else matters. It is what happens towards the beginning of an End..