It's All Camouflaged

Voice : Can you see it ?

Me : What ?

Voice : Look closely..isn't the green colour on it absolutely beautiful ?  

Me : On what ?

Voice : You need to focus and keep your vision steady. Stare closely and look straight ahead beyond that hill and you will see it. The light green clearly stands out from the other green you see..

Me : Alright ..I don't know what am I trying to spot !

Voice : I was trying to show you a tiny grasshopper on that blade of grass across the hills right ahead. 

Me : That’s like atleast a few kilometres away ! And you expect me to spot a green grasshopper camoflagued on a blade of grass ???  

Voice : No.

Me : Then why get me to spot it ? 

Voice : To show you how your pride is camouflaged. Just like this. 

You will never spot it, you won't see it, you won’t even acknowledge it. On the contrary, you will convince yourself you are without it. My vision reaches the deepest spots inside your being.    

Me : Aaah....I have a lot of pride or maybe it's just a little ? 

Voice : It becomes a 'lot' when you think you don't have any. 

Can you unflinchingly take the onslaught of aspersions, criticism, insinuations, be mocked in a room full of people without really getting affected ? I doubt it. 

In fact, would you remain unmoved by just a tiny harmless remark against you ? 

Me : Hmm..  

Voice : You are attached to your identity, image and care of what people think of you. You are disproportionately attentive to this than you are to God. Are you projecting yourself as being a nonchalant and humble man ? 

 

A true lover of God with his longing and depth of love forgets His own being. True humility lies in this state of being. 

There is so much of 'you' that is present.

 

Me : How do I work on this ?

Voice : Let’s shed the cloak of humility to begin with. Shed the misconception that you have about yourself…being simple, humble, pious, calm, devout.. 

By creating a surrounding of your liking you have only tried to create a 'safe space' for yourself. You can run but you can’t hide from your own self. There are conflicts within, huge bag of hollowness and a great deal of misconceptions about your own being. 

You have sought distinction through the illusory escape of 'not of this world' title but you are just in it as anyone else. 

With pride lurking inside you in quiet corners that you cannot see, you embark on every seeker's dreaded pitfall - hypocrisy. 

Remember, the truly humble is a rare one. Rare one indeed.    

Me : Can I change ? 

Voice : What else am I here for ? 

Recognise yourself as you really are. Not by being in the forefront but by being a shadow in the background. 

Me : Meaning ? 

Voice : To make yourself subservient to Me at every opportunity. That is how 'You’ lose prominence. 

See Me in the other. Interact with Me in every person. Find God in the other. Then you will discover a new way of living - the truest way of being. Your judgements will cease, your need to be right will pass, forgiveness will be easy and you will find less meaning in dwelling in actions and words of other people. You will feel unity in the apparent divisibility. 

This will bring you a grounded state of being. Humility is not attained with the mind or with a garb of 'holier than thou'.     

  

Me : What about encountering idiots ? 

Voice : They will expose your intolerant and arrogant side. They will do My work on you.  

Me : Oh 

Voice : When people hurt your pride, you get angry. But, neither expression nor suppression is going to teach you humility. But, unhesitatingly choosing forgiveness for your misgivings is a great way to begin.   

Remember, it's not doing things with humility, but lacing your actions with love so that they become humbling.  

Me : Pride, arrogance, anger, hypocrisy…after all these years and closeness to You, I am feeling of bit of a shame here. 

Voice : It makes you human. Will you share our conversation ?   

Me : Of course, why ask ? 

Voice : Because you just thought of not doing it..

Me : You reading my head again.  

You know, I don’t sound good in this conversation. I think this needs some edits and tweaking and .. 

Voice : It needs humility.. 

Simple Companionship

Voice : Do you feel we are distant ?

Me : No 

Voice : Do you like it when I speak with you ?

Me : I love it ! 

Voice : Then what are you trying to change ?

Me : What you mean ?

Voice : I see you are building a regime for meditation which is good, but you prefer Me as an extra class ?

Me : No

Voice : I see you coerce yourself to chant...am I not effortless and spontaneous ? 

Me : Yes

Voice : Love is nothing if it's not spontaneous, effortless and from ALL of your heart. Our conversations together are just that. Are they not intimate enough ?

Me : Yes they are. 

Voice : Then allow only spontaneity and naturalness to flourish. Coercion has no place in divine love. 

Our conversations appear as exchange of words, but in reality our communion is much beyond words. It is vibrational. The words you interpret and write are only a manifestation of the vibration that you are tuned into. 

Words are thus less of words, but more of divine vibration. And it is the silence between the words that carry the deepest connection.

Me : Wow

Voice : These spontaneous moments of meditative state is a part of your being in this life.     

Me : Hmm 

Voice : The slightest doubt in your heart can bring adulteration in the flow of this love.   

You have no idea how sacrosanct this companionship is for you and those around you. It's a state of being where you are meditating on the highest ideal without effort. What else do you feel you need to do ?

Do you realise that most spiritual pursuits are about discovering and gaining this divine companionship ?

Me : I was trying with more ways to get closer to You.

Voice : You have already tried all of it in your previous lifetimes. You are now living in company of God. Do you still feel inadequate ? 

Me : When you talk like this...wow. I am the most abundant man in the world! 

Voice : Continue to sense, feel and absorb My presence. Until one day, words will make a natural disappearance to make room for My Infinite Silence.   

Grand Play For God

Me : Did you like the play ? At first, we didn’t think we could pull off such a grand and compelling play with the message of God intertwined in it ! Judging by the way the audience responded, the play was a success !

Voice : The play was a success indeed. But, did you succeed ? 

Me : Meaning ? You are Perfection and we did put a lot of effort to put up a flawless show. Love for you was the driving force. 

 

Voice : Love for a perfect show was your driving force. Where was I in it ? 

You call me Mr Perfection but so-called imperfections are in complete perfection with Me. What you and your team were trying to work was with only skills. Skill may help you achieve a desired outcome but love is the only outcome that draws My attention. Otherwise, wouldn’t I bring the world’s most talented force of directors, actors and writers for My play ? 

I am beyond outcome. It is the process that is of importance. I am attentive to the love that is allowed to flourish in the making of the play. 

With your own understanding of 'perfection' you have thus made that age old mistake to confer God to your own version of standards. If I had 'standards', how would you look at someone who is goofy in My Love ? Would he get an opportunity in your play or will his goofiness deny him inclusion because 'My standards' are too high ? 

The play is just a medium. Just like everything is only a medium to express love. What meaning does anything have without it ? 

Me : Oh. I am understanding what you mean. I got zealously cautious that we do not casually misinterpret God's message through our play.   

Voice : If God can be misinterpreted by anyone - then My infinity is misunderstood. Love is the only language of God and is utterly unaffected by both - interpretations and misinterpretations. 

What matters is love in the heart of man - a living example of My message to the world.   

Me : Yes

Voice : Pursue perfection in love alone. Everything you do for Me or in My Name is for this one purpose alone. To give it any other importance is a distraction.

 

Me : Hmm. 

Voice : When you turned down one of My lovers because of his inability to act perfectly, you turned Me down. His longed to perform for Me.

When you turned down the script by a so-called 'non follower’, you created a division.  

When you bossed your way each time during the rehersals, you were working for your ownself, not Me.

Your anger and screaming directed towards actors who forgot their lines warranted more kindness and empathy.

Your desire for acknowledgment came in the way of exercising humility.

Your role was marred with a sense of pride that was hidden deep within your being.   

The final outcome on stage is important, but not more important than being loving. 

Me : I think we let our tempers, anxiety and anger fly all over the place in the making of this play.

Voice : Breakdowns in My work are opportunities to make choices; kindness over anger, empathy over pride, humility over recognition, light-heartedness over seriousness, love over attachment to outcomes. 

How many times did you choose the strength of poise while in the midst of numerous breakdowns ?

Me : I was overcautious to details and hoping for zero mistakes with the final performance.  

Voice : You think you have attention to detail ? I have a sharper eye for it. There was one individual who received great benefit from Me. He played the part that I liked the most. He knew he was skilful at the role handed over to him, but he turned it down to pass it silently to someone who he knew wanted it desperately and it would make him happy. While he was repeatedly told that he must not give up an opportunity to perform for God, he silently allowed the unerring voice of his heart. I have applause for him.   

Me : Hmm

Voice : What is the perfection you seek in My name ? to achieve the highest quality of acting ? highest quality of scripting ? or the impecable direction ? 

Remember, if you are in pursuit of perfection - know that Love is the perfection that draws My attention. Everyone in the play had begun to seek perfection in the outcome and I was sidelined in the process. Love for God is not a destination but a journey. Pay attention to your journey and leave the destination to Me. 

You earned a standing ovation for a job that spreads My message of Love and Truth which is good, but what would please Me more is when My message of love is through the way you live each moment, especially through the way you work. 

When love begins to fade in your interaction with each other and kindness begins to diminish, you are in pursuit of your ownself in My name. 

Me : I have a lot to learn. 

Voice : Perfection was sought, but the price was love.    

Standing ovation was achieved, but the journey was without Me. 
You performed flawlessly on stage, but My work was off the stage.

Me : The play wasn't a success, I thought it was...  

Voice : It is. You learnt so much.

Portfolio Management

Me : So I was at my friend's place for lunch today.

Voice : Yes, I observed you were very amiable with carbohydrates finally. 

Me : Ha ha. Well, you said it’s not what goes in, but what comes out of my mouth that is more important.

Voice : Yes.

Me : All went well and I spoke much about you. He is a nice God-loving person. 

Voice : He is nice God-fearing person.

Me : God-fearing ? Why do you say that ?

Voice : Did you notice the corner in his study room ? 

Me : Yes, he has a huge altar. There were many pictures of Gods and statues of deities to whom he prays everyday. 

Voice : That’s right. 

Me : Is that a problem ? 

Voice : No problem with Me but a hurdle for him.

Me : And how is that ?

Voice : Let Me explain. You have a portfolio manager for your stocks ? 

Me : Yes…but you didn’t leave too much money there for me.  

Voice : You have enough for your needs. 

Me : Yeah...no room for wants. Only needs! 

Voice : We will talk about this another time. 

So coming to that portfolio manager..their job is to manage your funds and give you substantial return on your investment. Their other job is to mitigate the risk and protect your capital. In the same way, many so called lovers of God are excellent portfolio managers. They turn to multiple avenues of protecting themselves and they are invested in Divinity by dividing their worship towards multiple Gods. Should one fail, there is another. And if one refuses to listen, they can turn to another. And just to be assured of always being protected, they dare not displease anyone with neglect. In other words, they have got themselves 'well covered'.     

So you see, it is fear that compels your friend to create a safety net of Gods and celestial beings. He prays, worships and visits different shrines and appeases different deities from a premise that becomes his own barrier. 

Me : More the merrier ! Where is the harm in this ?

Voice : You love your wife ?

Me : Yes. 

Voice : But what is the guarantee of the future of your marriage ? Should you not cover your risk my keeping multiple wives ? So that if one fails, you have a back up of another. Sounds absurd isn’t it ? I feel the same. It is no different with Me, but you still  choose to love God in this manner. How can you ever give your all when you have distributed your love and attention ? 

Me : Oh 

Voice : Beloved can only be ONE. And when you begin to justify your love-interest in multiple Divine Beings, you are exercising careless liberty with the One who loves you more than you can ever love your ownself.   

Only if you leave everything in the hands of One Master, will you allow yourself to grow on the path of love. 

Me : Makes sense. 

Voice : Your love for God should be true. When all your love is directed towards one Supreme Being, you are able to love wholly, truly and completely. This love and longing can only reach intensity when you love one Master exclusively. Then this love grows to become steadfast, unchanging and unwavering. 

If your goal is to love God, then your efforts must be towards growing deeper and deeper in His Love alone and this state is hard to achieve when one scatters his attention of multiple deities, celestial beings or Divine incarnates. 

Why distribute your precious psychic energy ? 

Me : Hmm

Voice : How fortunate are those who are steadfast in love with one Supreme Being. No distractions. No concessions. No temptations. 

Me : Then, why does this happen in the first place ? 

  

Voice : The premise for this unusual characteristic is fear..the desperate need for self-preservation while also wanting God. But, the path to God itself is elimination of yourself.

Also, people want answers that gratify them and when they fail to hear the voice of their Beloved, they turn to other avenues. 

Me : What do You suggest they do then ? 

Voice : If one is easily swept by circumstances, one will struggle with listening to the inner voice and grow in inward companionship which is always present. This is that moment that helps you become firm as a rock with your love, longing and conviction towards your only one and only Master. Here, no questions exists.    

 

Me : Hmm. We have Gods for wealth and prosperity, Gods for knowledge, Gods for fertility, Gods for protection.... 

Voice : It's human nature. No portfolio manager would recommend all your life savings in only one stock or one sector. To protect your future, you are very good at securing yourself with multiple financial arrangements. Why take chances with God ? Who knows what's He going to come up with next ? 

You tend to tilt to other mediums and divine beings because you feel unfulfilled, unprotected and unassured. This stems from only one space - lack of faith. One of the prerequisites to grow in consciousness is total conviction. This comes from laying down everything at the feet of only One Master and keeping no 'safety nets’ despite the adversities in your life. 

God is Love. You can love deeply when you are not defocused. 

Me : So true. God is indivisible.  

Voice : So, should your love be...indivisible. 

 

Life Is A Response

 

Voice : Hello. 

Me : You know why I am pensive..

Voice : Yes. That’s why I have chosen to talk to you now. 

I don't want you to worry too much about it. Do not despair over anyone’s apparent 'lack of efforts' to win My Love. It is not as it seems. There is a good reason for the distance and good reason for the closeness.  

Me : Help me understand.. 

Voice : I will use the analogy of both the sun and the moon here. 

Think of the sun. It’s the same sun that shines over earth, but how interesting that depending on where you on the planet, response to the same sun is different with everyone. The sun does not alter the power of its illumination, but your response to it varies.You may bask in the sun for all the warmth in the cold mountains or you may avoid it altogether in the afternoon in a tropical place.  

 

Me : True. 

Voice : Similarly, depending on where you are placed in evolution of your consciousness, you are only a living response…a response to God's Light.   

Everything you do is a response. A response to My Love that perennially flows to you. 

You may be unaware, but this determines your reciprocation to God. 

You feel you choose. You feel you initiate all actions. But, everything you do is only a secondary action. My Love flowing to your heart is the primary force. Everything in your life only becomes a response to this.

Me : Oh 

Voice : The more I open My tap of Love flowing in your heart, deeper will your response be to Me. The more I long for you, the more you will long for Me. The more I remember you, the more you will think of Me.   

You feel you have chosen to love God, you feel you are making efforts to get closer to God, You feel you are remembering God….it's all only a response. A response that I stimulate within you with My Love.

         

It is My Love that flows in varying proportion to stimulate varying intensity of longing within the seeker’s heart. 

Me : Why can’t You just shine the same light on everyone at the same time ? 

Voice : Ha ha  

Love for God cannot be manufactured by oneself - it is a seed bestowed in the heart of the lover by God. The seed germinates in perfect time and blossoms into longing and love for God over several lifetimes of nurturing.You do not know but you have endured the heat of the blazing sun in previous incarnations, which burned away layers of veils and you become prepared.    

If one is ill-prepared to be in the sun, it can burn you or even cause a heatstroke. 

And when it's time for a widespread transformation, the sun can also bring about significant changes in the world impacting all life in creation simultaneously.  

Me : Solar flares ? 

Voice : Yes. And you are in the middle of it right now.

Me : Hmm. You also said you will use an analogy of the moon ? What about that ?  

Voice : Have you realised that a bright moon in the sky can light up the dark night, even though it's light is just a reflection from the sun ?

Me : Yes. 

Voice : In the same way, you are like a moon whereby My Love is constantly being reflected to people you meet in your life. Subtly but certainly, My Light is always shining as a 'reflection' in your heart. 

The sun may not be visible to them, but they are still in God's light through you and soon they will bask in the direct rays of the sun.

Me : I am not sure if I can always be in a constant state of love and understanding.. 

Voice : Neither is the moon always a full moon, isn't it ? Without worrying about the light, live silently like the cycles of the moon, but knowing well that the light of the sun is always shining on you. 

  

Me : I want to love God more and more..

Voice : I know. Because I am stimulating your response. I love you more. 

   

Real ThanksGiving

Me : Thank you 

Voice : For what ? 

Me : For what you did there! 

Voice : Oh that deal you signed ? It was always going to go through. 

Me : Was a big one and I know You made it possible. 

Voice : Ha ha 

Me : Whats funny ?

Voice : It's funny how I get credit for things that happen the way you want. 

Me : What do you mean ?

Voice : I didn't do anything...that deal was in your lot. Frankly, I don't care much about it.

Me : Huh ?

Voice : I am more interested in taking away what you have. Being credited for giving you what you want doesn't interest Me. If you want to really thank Me, it ought to be especially when things don't go your way.

Me : Why would any normal person in the world do that !??

Voice : Because like you said ...they are normal people of the world.  

There wasn't even a word of acknowledgement from you for all the personal efforts I put in your life to enrich it. 

Me : I always thanked you for everything I have in my life..health, wealth, success,  relationships, Your Love. What have I missed to thank You for ??

 

Voice : You forgot to thank Me from the bottom of your heart when your back broke and I didn't let it heal for months, when you had that tax inquiry with your business, when I broke your car down, when you faced humiliation, when you had to cancel your holiday because of ill health, when I had your dream project buried and especially when plenty of your investments were made to fail last year. 

Didn't you notice My loving hands in all this ? A little show of gratitude for this effort would not hurt. 

Me : Seriously ?? You call that loving hands ?? Gratitude for what ?? 

Voice : I had to make several adjustments and work very hard to keep you free of the  dangers of world entanglements. I had to make you lighter by shedding all the unwanted baggage. Man, you were heavy weight!  

Me : Are we done or there is more coming ?? Perhaps, you still think I need to get 'lighter' ? Why not shrink me down to a pea ?  

Voice : I love you so much. How can I forsake you, by making your false world of shadows a place of pleasure and comfort for you ? I will never let go of you.  

Me : You know what - you need serious PR work if this post goes public. God is not expected to sound like this. 

Voice : It's not for all that I choose to reveal Myself. Let the notion of God and the so called 'spiritual path' be perceived as it is, by most. They will revel in the notion of reaping and will be drawn to the Path to 'gain'.

But, this is only a losing game. You will be effaced to finally find the Truth.When one is ready, he will know the real meaning of treading the path of emancipation.

Me : Damn! So you would prefer if I start showing gratitude and joy when nothing is going my way and be indifferent when things are going the way I want them ? 

Voice : I know how this sounds. 

Me : Nobody is going to look forward to what they hate and thank you for it !

Voice : I know. I have been doing a thankless job since the beginning of time. 

I want you to understand this..If things in the world begin to happen as you desire with all your wishes being fulfilled, then I have allowed you to go deeper and deeper into your slumber of ignorance. By lovingly placing all the things that go against your worldly wants, know for certain that you are being awakened to Reality.   

And, you My dear, are precious to Me. 

Me : You know this won't get people to follow You and this certainly won't  sound good for Your image. You know that, right ?    

Voice : For your love, I will take all the abuses, insults and brickbats. 

There will always be a difference - a supreme difference between being a 'follower' and being a 'lover'. 

Me : I think only when one is out of his mind, he will want this path to God ! 

Voice : What you think path to God is ? Meditative bliss, peace, joy and a carefree life ? This is not an escape to a comfort zone. This is a conscious and courageous plunge for the sake of love. It is a path of shedding, not gaining as many expect.  

This is for the true lover who wants God above everything else. When the floodgates of divine love opens up, it will destroy and disintegrate everything in its wake like a hurricane, and in that emptiness and nakedness, lies the Real Treasure.      

That's why the world will always see large crowds of seekers at the shorelines but very few lovers of God diving in the deep waters of the stormy ocean.    

Me : Hmm

Voice : My most significant work in your life is unnoticed, unobserved and in those uncalled events in your life. This is My work that really matters.  

The reward lies in the unexpected and what you dislike. Here is My real flow of  compassion but it remains almost always unacknowledged. Subtly but strongly, the discomforts in your life navigate you to the Truth.   

By placing the gift of adversities, incessant pain, obstacles, disillusionment and desperation, I am loving you beyond measure. This helps you embark towards creating natural indifference to the world, as My Love slowly and surely begins to draw you closer and closer to Me. 

There will come a time when you will want nothing but God's love. This is when you will joyously be ready to relinquish all for this love, even your own form.

What more can you want from this life ? 'God' is a quest for billions of people, but here, you are My quest !      

Me : I am in tears.. 

Voice : It is true that I come for all, but I am for a few.   

  

Me : Wow

Voice : Do you seek God ? 

Me : Yes.      

Voice : Then, thank Me for that alone. 

 

Why thank me for the home of your dreams, recovery to good health and for all the money you just made from a business project ? 

Thank Me when you loose it all.  

Transcending Seeking Guidance

Voice : Do you really need it ? 

Me : But I want your guidance. 

Voice : Do you feel you are living without it ?

Me : But I still feel the need to ask and seek your guidance for all my decisions. 

Voice : You can. But perhaps you are ready to transcend this need now.

Me : Meaning ?

Voice : When you seek My guidance, you are unconsciously bound to the belief of 'mis-guidance’ or lack of it. When you are Mine, do you think there is even single moment in your life without my guiding hand ? 

What compels you to ask My guidance ? Is it My absence or is it your own absence from My continual presence ? 

If you want to surrender to God, why assert yourself ? 

Me : Hmm

Voice : You ask guidance because you have already gravitated towards a particular outcome in your mind. You fear something may not turn up the way you like. How can surrenderance be complete in such a state of thinking ?

I am eternally in You as you are eternally in Me. I am awake to each breath you take. 

Even when everything goes wrong, you are perfectly guided. This needs deeper understanding of My Infinity. When you live with this conviction and surrenderance, you are able to step beyond seeking signs, messages, validations and guidance. 

Instead of seeking My response to your questions, live your life as a response to My Love moment to moment. Strive for it. Feel it.  

Me : But everyone asks for divine guidance and shouldn't that be good thing ? 

Voice : It is always a good thing. But, you My dearest, it is time for you to take a leap with Me, now.

Me : I am ready if you think I am ! 

Voice : It is only upto you. 

Recently, you asked for My guidance with your injury and you nearly lost your leg because of the way I was prompting your decisions. Tell me, was that My guidance or misguidance ? I know exactly how much it is necessary for you to endure so I let My help deliberately not arrive before time. Who would understand this ? Now, of what avail is seeking guidance ? 

How fortunate you are ! God loves you. If you really understand this, you will revel and live silently in My Love. When Love prevails, even the words 'Trust God' will fall short of this Divine understanding .  

Me : Wow. So, all that happens is your wish.

Voice : To the very tiniest moment..especially for My close ones who have surrendered to Me.  

If I was physically present right now and held your hand to walk you through a dense forest, would you keep questioning with Me for directions ?

Me : Of course not !

Voice : So the problem lies in you not seeing and feeling My hand. That is why you keep seeking My guidance and help, which is actually never absent!  

Feel My hand all the time. Leave everything to My wish, trust that each moment is My Will. Discard the notions of seeking guidance and signs. Allow 'if' and 'but' to die a natural death. Stay in quiet submission. Feel My presence in each moment. It is a quiet surrenderance where gradually you fade away and only I am.

    

Me : Not everybody would be comfortable with this idea. 

Voice : Because suddenly you feel vulnerable. Throughout lifetimes, you have lived with the notion of control and believing what you 'think' was good for you. Now, you are left with no sight of what is next and that is a frightening prospect to most. This is not for everyone.   

Me : Yes..

Voice : It’s time for you to transcend any kind of seeking and only live in submission of higher Will. Because when you surrender completely to Me, you allow Me to be responsible for everything in your life. 

You do not have to seek Me, because I am never gone.  

For the one who lives with this precious Love in his heart, all that he does has perfect results because everything is emanating from the source of Love.   

True lover is the one who is so absorbed in divine consciousness that He is simply an instrument of Divine Will and without being aware of it. He has no Will of his own and therefore experiences futility in even seeking guidance. He smiles at all outcomes. 

It's time for you to be nothing. Nothing, but a living embodiment of God's Will.   

Me : Wow. Will I be able to ? 

Voice : Leave it to My Will. 

 

Lost Connection

Me : I felt 'disconnected' with You yesterday. 

Voice : Hmm 

Me : Not good, right ? 

Voice : It’s very good. 

Me : Very good ?? The entire day I was aware of my lack of connection with You and I did not like that! 

Voice : The very instance you feel my disconnection is actually a connection with Me. The awareness of your disconnection, itself is a connection. It shows how close we always remain. 

Me : Oh 

Voice : How fortunate you are ! Your connection or lack of it both mean the presence of My Divine Love in equal strength. 

Once you anchor into Me, it's all upto Me. I never release the anchor...all that happens is the slackening and tightening because of the storms you sail. 

Me : Wow

Voice : You can remember, only when you first forget. 

Solitude

Me : Is spending time in solitude spiritually significant ?  

Voice : You tell me..why do you choose to be by yourself most of the time ? 

Me : I enjoy being alone and quiet. I love it.  

Voice : Why do you enjoy it ?

Me : When I am alone I hear you speak inside my heart. I feel your presence. I do not dislike interacting, but your companionship is such a fulfilling experience that I want it to be uninterrupted as long as I can…just like how it is now. I want to be attentive to each word you whisper in my consciousness. Maybe, this is why I choose to be in solitude whenever I can.  

These are the moments when I desire nothing else. What else is needed beyond the company of the Highest ?  

Voice : You have answered your own question. 

Me : So, avoid all company if one wants to talk to God ?? 

Voice : That is not what I said. Being in solitude does not mean dispelling people or rejecting interaction. On the contrary, it is about finding adequacy.

Me : Finding adequacy ? 

Voice : Finding adequacy in My companionship, finding contentment in divine immersion, finding fulfilment in our conversations. When nothing matters except growing in this divine flow of love. 

Solitude is not a spiritual regimentation, but an outcome of the longing for more and more of God’s love. You become helplessly drawn to it. 

Me : Hmm   

Voice : When the noise of the world is muted and you are by yourself, you create external silence. This helps inner silence. Solitude is exploration of this penetrating silence. 

When you pray I am listening but when you are silent, you are listening to Me. And when this is allowed to flourish, you hear me clearly. 

When this becomes deeper, even conversations will no more remain and only manifestation of pure, silent, fulfilling love.  

   
Me : Wow. Then why do some people dislike being alone ?

Voice : You would probably dislike it too. But, you have never known being alone because of our companionship which is older than you know...an earning through the yearning which has been since lifetimes.  

Me : Hmm

Voice : Solitude is to know you are not alone. 

Closer Than Your Breath

Voice : Your breath is a part of you every single living moment. You are not conscious of it but you inhale and exhale without a break.

Me : That is true.

Voice : This simple act of breathing exists so subtly in your consciousness that the awareness of it is lost in its effortlessness.

Me : Yes

Voice : But does your breath desert you if you are not attentive to it ?

Me : Of course not. But why you telling me this ? 

Voice : To let you know that you are not 'doing' breathing. Breath is you. 

I am closer to you than your own breath. Fathom how close we really are. 

I am never absent from you. I can never desert you for I am not outside of you. I am you. I want you to know this. Fathom this. Believe it. Feel it. 

Living in the sweetness of this conviction will one day engulf you in the eternity of Divine Love.    

Me : Wow

Voice : Why call upon Me for I am never gone. Call upon your own Self.