Angel

Me : I love Angel. 

Voice : I know. When you love with all your heart, I always know because I receive it.  

Me : Is this called attachment in some way ?

Voice : Ha ha. I know that you have been hearing that often. 

Me : Well...

Voice : The question arose from your mind, not your heart. Now, what I tell you would be good to share with everyone.

Me :  Okay.

Voice : Attachment and detachment both carry deeper interpretations. Pure love is free of these interpretations. 

Me : How ?  

Voice : Attachment seeks to possess. Fear is the base for this feeling. Attachment arises from the emptiness of one’s being. It is a constriction of consciousness. It seeks self-gratification. It's a desire that imprisons. 

Do you see this between you and Angel ? 

Me : Nope. There is no fear. I feel she has opened up my heart and I only feel..more deeply.    

Voice : Good. And Angel is not attached to you, either.

Me : Really ?

Voice : Fiery pure love can appear strange to many. Often, this will be misinterpreted as attachment. Her love for you is fiery, fearless and unconditional.    

Me : Hmm 

Voice : Now lets understand the other word used - ‘detachment’. 

Me : Yes. Am often told to stay reasonably detached. 

Voice : Reasonably detached ? This is an amusing choice of words.. 

Me : Spiritual seekers use this often. 

Voice : Yes. Most aspirants advocate or been advised 'detachment', but this takes one further away from the supreme goal of Love. 

Me : How ? 

Voice : In reality, detachment cannot be a goal for anyone. If your desire is detachment, know that you are embarking on just another strong attachment - 'attachment to the idea of detachment.' 

Divine detachment simply emerges. It can never come as a pursuit. Any such attempt is a mental exercise that causes further binding. Only when one is drowned in the fire of pure love, detachment becomes an experience. It is a state of Being that arrives afterwards, not before on the divine path. 

Detachment remains only a word, until the intensity of Love consumes one's false Self.  

Me : Oh  

Voice : And, in true detachment, one is oblivious of his own sense of detachment. Since he is not attached to anything not even his physical self, the idea of detachment is alien to him. 

Instead of understanding divine detachment fully, humanity has crowned this misinterpretation and only succeeded in constricting consciousness from it's full expansion. It’s a life of half measure and in many cases a life of disguised indifference.  

Me : Beautiful. How did we get to this point  ? 

Voice : Because of self-preservation. You seem to understand it is easier to withhold part of yourself in the guise of detachment. It seems easier to protect your own emotions with the distance. You build layers to protect your heart. But, pure hearts will always have vulnerability. Yes, it can break easily but remember hearts that are filled with love, when broken, only pour out more love. 

How do you think I prefer you live .. protecting yourself your entire life ?

Me : Hmm 

  

Voice : Angel is in your life to expand your consciousness beyond the interpretation of attachment or detachment. She is in your life to give you the opportunity to love fully and completely. She is here to rip you heart open so you can feel love, receive love and grow in love. You will feel its glory, the joy, the pain, the sorrow, the exuberance, the anguish...all of it is part of experiencing the glory of pure love. 

You are giving all of yourself not really to Angel but to pure love that she symbolises. The reward of love lies in total immersion.

That is why I would rather you live in the world expressing love, rather than meditate for hours everyday. Love and God mean the same. 

  

Me : Wow. I feel normal now. Thank you. 

Voice : How fortunate are you to have this opportunity !

She is helping you grow and you have given yourself fully and held nothing back. You feel her heart and she feels yours. You devote yourself for her comfort, you are prepared to go any distance to give her the best. You have spared no part of yourself to be attentive to her smallest needs. It was easy to find reasons to shorten or skip her walks in so many years but something made you choose her over everything. This is the nature of love. 

Any other way is really distance from your own self. How can any interpretation of detachment even begin to capture this ? 

Me : I wasnt like this. 

Voice : I know. Just like many, you took shelter under the guise of 'spiritual detachment' to get closer to God but were actually distant from Him. You only succeeded to build walls of indifference and carved a barren living that was yet to taste the glory of love. You wanted God for your 'Self', but only when you forget your 'Self', can He be found. Angel was to take you away from looking at your own Self.  

If you create distance from My own creation, how can you love God fully ?

Me : So you sent Angel to bring this love into my life ? 

Voice : Love was always there inside you…she walked to you with the keys.  

Me : Sure did. But I feel deep pain when she is in pain.. 

Voice : Enlightened ones thank God not just for the joy, but especially for the pain. They know the mysteries of divine path. They dont fear the pain of love, but dread to have never had the opportunity to immerse in pure love. 

Let not the noise of words outside you of attachment and detachments dim the light of love. Grow deeper. Love deeper. What else is real ? There is no effacement of Self without selfless caring and giving for another.      

Remember, in the pursuit of detachment, you are present. In loving, I am present. 

Me : Wow

Your precious human birth is a gift and this gift turns into a blessing only with the magic of love. You are not expected to be a stone again. Let the intensity of emotions surface. Allow yourself to love and be loved. Cry with joy and pain. Become a human fully before you may become God.

Me : Beautiful. 

Voice : Angel symbolises love in the gross world. She has drawn circumstances to bring you closer to your own Self.   

When the time is right, the purity of this love will lift you from where you are, to be where you need to be...that will be My part. 

Me : Woah

Voice : Angel.. interesting name. Just a dog, you think ?    

 

Privileged Life

Me : So why can't he see this ? If he placed his trust in God, his life would incredibly transform. 

Voice : The irony of duality is time. Time dictates everyone’s apparent journey. It is your time now - even if you resist it. Sense of this closeness to God is in your lot in this life. 

Me : Hmm

Voice : No matter how it may appear to you, there is only one direction where everyone is moving. Look at life of everyone as an apparent time-lapse that eventually fades into insignificance when you experience Oneness.  

Judgements will rest. Resistance will pass. Drama will cease. 

Everyone is exactly where they belong.

Me : Then, I should consider myself very very very fortunate to even just believe in Your existence and experience Your love in this lifetime.

Voice : To have even a faintest awareness of God as God - is a gift from God. 

It is not you who has found Me, but Me who has sought you.

You are living a privileged life. 

In the Name of God

Me : Why do spiritual Masters and Saints speak about chanting the Divine Name ? Almost all ancient scriptures unfailing speak about it. Why is this so important for a seeker ? 

Voice : Often you have walked alone in the mountains and you have reached villages you have never been to, but how is it that you have never really lost your way ? 

Me : That's because there is always a natural trail to follow. 

Voice : Who made these trails ? 

Me : With repetitive walking on the same path, I guess ?

Voice : Thats correct. Repetitive footprint on the same path created a trail on it's own. And now, it holds good in the harshest weather and the pathway remains for everyone to follow for years. It's the same with chanting the Divine Name. 

Every time you repeat God's name you are gradually creating a divine pathway from your subconscious mind to your conscious mind. Over time you subjugate unfavourable impressions in your mind and are no longer held captive by them. You clear your path to Divinity. The longer and deeper the repetition, the faster you create this divine pathway.   

Just as you remove a thorn embedded in your foot with a needle, you create a new impression to remove the unwanted ones. 

So every time God’s name shoots up into the conscious mind, the barrier between the conscious and subconscious mind gets stronger to prevent unwanted impressions to take charge of you. This is a powerful remedy for those who wish to live their life from Divine awareness instead of being helplessly ruled by the lower Self. 

Me : Just by simply taking God's name ? 

 

Voice :  Yes, and its very simplicity goes against it. 

Me : True. And would it not get too mechanical sometimes ? 

Voice : It is natural for chanting to appear mechanical in the beginning, because of the thick layers of impressions that you have gathered since ages. But over time if persisted, chanting God's name will open open your heart and it will no more remain mechanical. Love will be the motive of everything you do.  

Me : Hmm

Voice : Repeated thought or action forms an impression that if reinforced becomes a strong centre in your mind that governs you. This repeated chanting of the Divine Name will help create a devotion centre within your consciousness. Just the way repeated strides on a  grassy land creates a pathway.  

The name of God holds power beyond your imagination. True seekers of God know it and live it.  

Me : Wow 

Voice : It is you alone choosing what to fill your mind with every moment and that in turn is shaping your consciousness. 

Is God on your mind ??   

Music

Me : I have heard of great lovers of God who played music and sang for you. And I meet several people who can create music, recite hyms, sing devotional melodies that sound so wonderful. What a blessing to be able to use musical expression for love for God!

Voice : Yes, it’s a divine quality. Love can effortlessly transmit from heart to heart with music. It can change the world.     

Me : And here I am, I can't sing to save myself. Actually, I can't repeat a single line from any song. Melody within me is non-existent. I have nothing musical about myself. Sometimes, I feel maybe if I had the aptitude to play any small instrument I would get the privilege to play a note for You from my heart..     

Voice : Everything in the universe emits a sound frequency, not just musical instruments.

When you write, it is music to My ears. Each word creates a divine sound vibration that reverberates in the universe. How is that not music ? 

Ever noticed the sound of silence ? What a divine note it carries ! I listen to your silence with so much attention. 

And how I enjoy the rhythm of the beating of your heart for Me!  

Me : Wow. You find love in everything about me !

Voice : That's the nature of divine love...    

Don't worry about being unable to play a musical instrument for Me. You are an instrument yourself in My divine orchestra !

 

    

Darkness of Illusion

Me : I have had it ! I quit ! Damn this maya ! 

Voice : You damning Me ?  

Me : How am I damning you ?? 

Voice : Maya is My shadow. The closer you come to Me, wouldn't also My shadow get closer to you ? How can you separate this experience ? 

Me : Inevitable as I am drawn closer to you ? I thought it was contrary. 

Voice : Most people think so. 

Me : The force of illusion feels intense !    

Voice : Because you are close to Me. 

Me : I can't handle the darkness.

Voice : Aren't shadows always dark ?

Me : Sigh..

Voice :  Anyone can play in light. But, the darkness strengthens you to transcend one's own self. Maya is not your enemy. 

I will tell you something that you may have not heard before….the world tells you I am the Redeemer, but it is maya who will redeem mankind.  

Me : What ?

Voice : The force of Illusion is My vehicle to liberate your own self. You navigate illusion to come to Light. I am only an armour. You dress yourself with Me to unravel your life or choose to go unarmed. The choice is yours. But the battle is inevitable. And it's best fought by being in the world.    

Me : Like using the falseness to find the Truth ? My fear is losing sight of you ! 

Voice : Fear will be your greatest impulse for growth. I see courage in your heart. Continue to be where you are placed. It's My place for you at the moment.    

You will soak, gasp and choke for breath. You will feel you are drowning, but you will never sink. I am the Light in you that can never dim. 

Me : I feel, see and sense things that only make me more withdrawn. 

Voice : That is your predicament. In time it will be your strength, not weakness. 

Know that you can only remember Me, only if you forget. You are drawn to light, because you feel the darkness. You can only know true freedom from the experience of bondage.

Me : Wow  

Voice : Remember, as long as you are in duality, there will always remain the way to restore balance through the opposite. 

 

Me : Opposite ?? That sounds like a big problem. 

Voice : Imbalance may be a bigger problem. Bring your awareness to the ways of duality. 

One day, you will see darkness guiding you to light and not the other way around.

You will be prepared for what is coming.

Me : Scary. But incredibly profound.  

 

Voice : Next time you enjoy being under the shade of a tree - be aware that you are enjoying it's 'dark shadow'. 

Blessing to Belong

" I don't need to show, 

That you are needed

You know it all, 

You are holding my hand. 

Those wishes inside me, 

I don't need to voice them 

You have the pulse, 

Of my heart in your hand. 

Before a tear falls, 

Or my lips stretch to smile 

You know it all, 

As I remain in your love. 

 

 Drifting away by myself, 

 Inseparable from You

It's a blessing for me to know,  

That I belong, and belong only to You."   

Are You Happy ?

Voice : Are you happy ? 

Me : Is that a trick question ? 

Voice : Just a simple question

Me : You don't ask simple questions. 

Voice : Haha

Me : To answer You, I am very happy right now. Why wouldn't I be - with a warm cup of tea, silence all around, melody of himalayan flute playing in the background and heart warming views ..

Voice : So if all this is taken away from you, will you still remain happy ? 

Me : Even my tea goes ?      

Voice : Yes, even your tea is taken away ….along with everything else. 

Me : With everything taken away from me, I think I will have a problem. I think anyone would !

Voice : Not everyone. 

Me : Not everyone ?  

Voice : Not for those who live in self-sustaining, unbounded and eternal joy that springs from within. But, this quest will remain elusive for those in pursuit of happiness that is dependant on things that are transient...and this even includes your own form. 

Me : How can one be conscious of the difference ?   

Voice : Simple. One needs to know the false as false, to know what is Real. 

Me : And God alone is Real !

So every moment, one is taking a step either towards what one 'thinks' will give one happiness or towards 'real happiness'.    

Voice : For real happiness, you don't take steps, you simply choose. 

Real happiness does not delude those who know the difference of 'Being Happy' and 'Being Happy In God’s Love'. Living this difference is everything. 

Then, nothing can be taken away from you because you already have the great fortune to have lost everything in God's Love. 

Me : Wow

Voice : You can find what you are looking for.....but, what ARE you looking for ? 

The Last Dance

"The rigours of movement, 

Could not halt my body 

Nor did the bleeding of my feet, 

Or sensation of any pain.  

Swaying and moving unceasingly,

Music played for my dancing feet 

Overcoming physical impossibility, 

I wasn't in my body.

It was the descent of energy upon me, 

 Breaking me into rigours of movement 

My being reverberated with intensity, 

I knew this frequency. 

  

With entire existence within my breath, 

Nothing was to stop me today  

Moving to the rhythm of celestial music,   

Smile and tears made their way.

Resonating within louder and louder, 

My entire being vibrated with His call, 

Facing total annihilation in this trance 

I was in bliss of my last dance." 

Remember Me

Me : I am in the middle of intense work and suddenly Your Presence has filled up my heart. I feel the touch of your Divine Love and lightness in my entire being. Right now, I am unexpectedly blissful while in the midst of my work !  

Voice : Oh sorry. Did I distract you ? 

Me : No No.….it's like You suddenly remembered me. I thought it was my job to remember You. 

Voice : Well, you did think of Me. 

Me : I don't think so. I was only thinking of my client and all this work…

Voice : What were you doing at 5 am today ?

Me : Oh ..I was trying to focus on You .. but the pain in my toe kept me from being still. I lost you in this distraction. 

Voice : But I did not.

The sun wasn't up yet and you struggled to get out of bed early morning today, inspite of having a late night. You had pain in your toe and your mind struggled to focus on God. But you persisted. You did not give up on Me. Then, how could I ?    

 

I am beyond results. Your efforts carve your Path.  

It has become My responsibility to remember you.

Me : God!

Voice : Yep, thats Me.

Me : All because I choose to wake up early..   

Voice : All because you choose to awaken.

Broken

“I am broken, 

I am bleeding 

How can I survive this, 

Until the very end ? 

I lay deserted, 

I am defeated

With no strength left, 

Are you even with me ? 

Why do I choose you, 

To ride this life with you? 

 This happens again,

And over and over again. 

Under the dark clouds,

I sit sunken with the pain

Giving up on myself,  

And nearly giving up on you..

That's when You speak ; 

“Cry every last tear, my dearest,

Remember, nothing may seem right

But this is not yours, but My fight,   

My invisible hand always holds you tight." 

The Breeze

Voice : Hello 

Me : Hi 

Voice : How is the tea ?

Me : Awesome 

Voice : The breeze is great , isn't it ?

Me : Yes. Nothing like a gentle cool breeze caressing you, while having a perfect cup of tea and the pleasure of your company.

Voice : Thank you

Me : Conversations with you are so much fun.

Voice : I enjoy our time together, too. 

Me : It’s so interesting...I speak with you more than I speak with anyone else, but there is no 'face' that I speak to....  

Voice : And that is the reason we connect so easily.

Me : Really ?

Voice : You love the feeling of gentle and cool breeze caressing you, but can you really see the breeze ? 

Me : No  

Voice : I am like that breeze for you. You don't need to see me…you just feel My Presence.

When no face nor form exists, the Divine connection becomes effortless.  

In your inner silence, you allow the breeze to carry My gentle whispers to your soul. 

The Sentinel Being Spoke..

 

Voice : I see a tear roll... 

Me : The Tree spoke. 

Voice : And ?  

Me : And in a moment I turned from deep anguish to deeper awareness. I have never heard this before anywhere.  

Voice : Nature speaks....

Me : Indeed. This Tree is like my Guardian since years. She speaks words of wisdom in her silent whisper. We communicate often. Sometimes we are physically apart but connected deeply in spirit. 

It was hard for me to accept one situation. The anger and disdain for those people that surfaced inside me was making me bitter and uncomfortable. Then, the Tree revealed to me the Truth of it all. This has changed everything in an instant for me. 

Voice : Hmm

Me : When the trees are axed, I feel the pain and I slip into grief and anger. When this brutality happened in my awareness, I was mad with those people! Frustrated, I walked to my Guardian Tree. 

I pleaded to know if mankind will ever wake up to nurture it's own self - our natural world ?? When will our consciousness be ready to realise we are made up of five elements and we can never live in harmony if our natural world is not cared for ? Why are we so disconnected ??  

Voice : Did you find your answer ? 

Me : And the tree replied, ''My dearest, we have volunteered for our own destruction. We choose to be axed. So when we perish, we continue our journey of evolution of consciousness. How can we move from being a Tree to a human to finally reach our goal, unless we perish first ? Haven't you too been a part of exactly the same journey ? You too perished a number times. You wish for your evolution, but why grieve for ours ? We will always be connected in infinite ways you cannot imagine. Yes, the natural word is facing destruction - but death is the most beautiful part of creation ! 

This is the most important time in history of earth, where death can bring a jump in the evolutionary journey - not only with humanity, but with All in creation. I may be axed and die...only to be born again. Be happy if I choose to hasten this. Would you not choose it, too ?   

Forgive those who appear to be ignorant. Know that they are doing their part. You are playing yours. Caring for the natural world is in your fate in this life...a gift that will play it's part in your evolution. You will learn the magic of being ''connected to everything and attached to nothing.'' 

Rest peacefully in my shade for as long as you want. I know your heart. Thank you for always caring for us."  

When I heard this, it changed something in me forever.   

Voice : Hmm 

Me : This is not something I can share with everyone. 

Voice : It was revealed to you because you were distraught and in pain. How can your sentinel companion let you remain so ? The inner link and love in your heart brought to you the wisdom that you were ready to receive. 

Me : Wisdom makes one live lighter. I am feeling light in my heart. Your creation is incredible.

Voice : And so is My destruction. Remember, My Divine Love flows through My destruction as much as My creation. The wise ones who know this, always remain in equipoise like the Tree.

Destruction is My Infinite Compassion, but who understands it ? 

   

Hiding

 

" Hiding in the deep mountains, 

Away from what he could not see

There was a part of him,

He felt he had to bury deep.

He lay unseen, unheard for years,

In the world he couldn't understand 

Fulfilling his day with simple chores, 

He shaped his life without strife.

He tried his best to lay under, 

But life brought him to surface

For every time he heard the Voice, 

He had to return as the saviour. 

Though the world meant nothing to him,

He failed to fight what he was beneath

Attached to nothing, 

He was connected to everything." 

What Have You Done ?

"What have You done ? 

Stripped me of my dreams

I have become so lost, 

Ever since I found you.

Every day seems one step closer, 

To walk into your world  

I simply wait for the day, 

When time will find me within you. 

Your love is blazing fire, 

 Withstanding the thundering rain 

I am soaked head to toe,

Why do I smile for more ?  

What can a heartache be,

Laced in your divine love ?

What does pain remain to be, 

For the one laying at your feet ? 

Tears flow when everything fails,

But your light makes it's way

Through the darkness of the night,

And you appear as a new dawn again.

I am the ship in Your waters,

Afloat or drowned 

Let the storm come, 

Why would I care ?

From all the stars in the sky,

I fall into your arms   

It's the truth I know,  

I'll never be born again."