Open That Door

Voice : You can do it. Go on. Open the door. Walk…

Me : No. I don’t want to. 

Voice : Don’t want to or 'want to, but it can get uncomfortable' ? 

Me : I am fine here. I am doing good

Voice : I know that. 'I am doing good’ is the usual obstacle to ‘I can be God'.

Me : Damn..

Voice : You know of the strife you had to go through to get to ‘I am doing good’ ? Continue your journey to get to ‘I am God’. Why stop ? Your soul is on the most important phase of your life! Let not the idea of any discomfort, pain or fear stagnate you.   

Me : I am not ready to risk anything now..

Voice : You are a rock climber. So you know exactly how this works. When you are vertical on the rockface with all your 4 limbs balancing on the faintest holds at dizzying heights - how do you make an advance move ? You have to release the comfort of your present grip in order to advance to another one. Many times on the rock wall, you had to let go of the most comfortable and safe spot on the vertical wall in favour of harder, riskier pinch holds that offered no sense of security. 
Staying with secure hand and foot holds will keep you safe, but will also keep you away from the summit. Many times, you have advanced on the vertical rock without a guarantee of safe footing, but you knew this was the only way to make it to the top of the pinnacle. There is no other way. And once you make it to the summit, the feeling inside your heart supersedes all pain, blood, sweat and suffering. 

Me : You are right. But when I am halfway to the top, there is no way I was going down without trying my best to finish the climb. 

Voice : Then why do so now ? You have worked very hard, but you have not finished your climb.  

Me : Maybe because I am just too comfortable right now and it feels ... safe.

Voice : That’s exactly how the entire human race is. You unconsciously place yourself in self-created 'safety-nets’. This illusion of safety and security impedes your own evolution. You work endlessly on creating the delusion of 'safety-nets’ and miss living to your truest potential. Your existence is made to thrive on a belief of a ‘safe' future that you have not seen. You get comfortable to live without challenges. This is where you lose Me. 
It’s natural for our relationship to thrive when you are in rough waters and I am your Guide. That way we create deeper connection and a special companionship. Your love and faith in Divinity grows with doing things that are difficult..sometimes supremely difficult. But, if you choose safety and comfort over living to your highest potential, what role is left for Me to play in your life ?  

Me : Hmm..

Voice : But, since it's inevitable to fulfil the soul’s destiny, things will happen in your life that will appear unprecedented or seem undesirable but it's only to draw your attention to where you need to walk. But if you still choose to resist, the faint nudge turns to a bigger challenge and sometimes into an adversity and eventually you choose to open that door that was always in your sight. You then become who you were always meant to be...yourself. To find Me, you must find yourself, first.   

Me : So, we are our own resistance which invites suffering into our lives.. like we are misleading our ownselves with the pretext of 'being good' ?   

Voice : That does happen when the inner voice is ignored for the dictates of the mind that feeds on limitations, fears, desires, distrust and the false notion of self-preservation. 
Your climbing pursuits taught you through experience that the reward often lied on other side of great fear.

Me : Always and always my worst fears have brought me the greatest growth. I can barely remember having doing anything noteworthy in my life without opening that door that I would really never want to open.   

Voice : And it cannot be any different with the way you live your life right now.

Me : If it's just about doing what the heart wants, why is it such a hard decision to make ? 

Voice : Because the mind has hundreds of very good reasons; the heart has just one.   

Me : Wow. So true. But, just like all climbers, I have always used a safety rope to climb. The inherent risk remains, but the feeling of this security enables my freedom to climb harder. Everyone looks at creating their own safety-net, right ? 

Voice : Yes. Sense of security is not the problem. You just have to recognise when it becomes your bondage instead of freedom.