Desires of Higher Ideals

Me : Thanks for bringing me back, again. 

Voice : I am always around. 

Me : I know why you had to do it. The injury was the only way and surprisingly I am not feeling unhappy - even though I was at the peak of my physical conditioning, even though I now face a possible abandonment of my expedition and months of hard work going down the drain....

Voice : I am very pleased to know you have remained positive. 

Me : I was lost and I didn't realise I was fuelling such a deep desire that I was loosing myself ! I was excited and my mind was fixed on this goal. That was all I was thinking. I thought it was great to lead an inspirational life and I knew I could do it. My thoughts, words and deeds lived for this dream and I thought that climb was just a harmless passionate pursuit. 

Voice : And nothing wrong with that. However, would you care to be enthusiastic about it instead of passionate ?

Me : Whats the difference ? 

Voice : You approach the same goal with equipoise and let that occupy a 'secondary' spot in the head. Its very much there - but not in the forefront but at the back of your mind.  

Me : Why ? 

Voice : Cause the danger of attachment doesn't come in. 

Me : But, don't you have to work towards it ?

Voice : Here is the subtle difference - instead of working towards 'it'...work towards 'YOU'

Me : Please explain..

Voice : In order to climb the mountain on the outside, you climb the mountain inside. Its not the external world that must lure you, its the attention to the inner world that brings you the summit. Focusing on something 'out there' easily brings anxiety, agitation, fear of failure, discontentment, pride, restlessness, despair and attachment. 
Its great to feel you can climb any mountain and you can, but do it with a difference. Climb the way it must be climbed with peace, serenity, stillness, merger, detachment, humility and importantly with submission to the Higher Will.           
   
Me : But isn't it normal and nobel to have a desire to do something that is inspirational and uplifting for the human spirit ?

Voice : Yes, by letting it happen naturally in your life like its just another chapter.  
There is nothing wrong feeling happy by wanting to do things, having certain things and becoming someone. You may not realise it, but soon you spend all your time nurturing your desires and thats when fail to be in the present. and I have to pull you back again to remind you to unburden yourself.

Under the garb of nobility, inspiration, passion, you have begin to dissipate your precious energy. Are you not inspirational right now ? 

Me : Not sure. 

Voice : One of the most inspirational things you can do it able to focus on Divinity with all the chaos around you. You know that everything around you is ephemeral and yet you stay in the falseness without running away. You have been struggling to stay on the Path of Divinity with all its challenges but you dont give up. You battle temptations on daily basis. You have some so far from where you started - this is inspirational existence. 

Walk into your past and you will realise, you never really lived with desires for any of the things you have now like a beautiful home, adorable daughter, great spouse, best of health and fitness, flowing abundance and prefect career ? You wanted to be a wanderer in the Himalayas with nothing.  

Me : Hmm….you are right. I didn’t actively pursue anything at all and it all seemed to have happened like accidents! 

Voice : And now what happened with the other desires that you actively fuelled and harboured ? 

Me : Damn you are right….nothing of that happened for some silly reasons or other. How is that ? 

Voice : Desires, Wants, Aspirations  … thats the one thing that can bring an unfulfilled existence. 

Me : And when I have you - I should be happy to know I don’t have anything more to desire !

Voice : Don't even desire Me. Remember that. Desire NOTHING. 

Let things happen. When you are in the moment - you permit Me to bring you goodies. 
But your desires keep you away from being in the NOW. When you hold desires, you dwell into the future. 
You may think that dwelling in the future will help you manifest your desire, but the manifestation happens in the present moment. 

Me : Hmm..

Voice : Thats how you been 'accidentally' shaping your life. Why do you see a need to create and harbour more desires  ?

Me : Cause I though it would be inspirational to achieve that feat in the mountains. 

Voice : Thats very good but its still a desire. It doesn’t keep your mind empty. 
You had thoughts about failing and that brought you anxiety. And more your thought about it, the more you lived in the future and less with Divinity - in the Now. 

Try not to be mistaken by analysing desire as good, noble, bad, inspirational or evil - they are all desires and have the same result in the head. 

Me : I think I am just gonna go about leading a simple life and let things happen…cause really nothing is by chance. The trick is to be in the present, want nothing and revel in joy of my being as I am, where I am and how I am. 

Voice : You can still climb that peak...but just about 'accidentally'.

Me : You have given me some exceptional gifts like will power, determination, discipline, resilience, endurance and balance of heart and mind - its perfect to use them to scale high mountains and achieve the impossible. What do you expect me to do with these strengths, now ?

Voice : Your strengths will be more needed, than you know.

Me : And just how and where ? 

Voice : At around 29,000 feet, Mount Everest is the highest point on earth. Few people can make it there. 
Even fewer can make it to a place higher than the summit of Everest. I AM at that height !
It will test your courage, tenacity, will power and demand mental toughness and unmatched conviction and here is where you will need all those strengths that I have given you. 

The point is - which climb are you focused on ?